there is just this unspeakable joy in me now.

seeing everybody at home was just too much for me to take it all in in one shot, so much so that i was pretty much overwhelmed in church. the kids were scrambling, rachel was screaming hysterically (fine, i'm exagerrating), and everybody was just wishing one another merry christmas. speaking of which, i was asking myself what Christmas meant to me this year, considering all that i've gone through for this one year in the army. frankly, i never really gave it much thought even right now as i type, it's just on the spot thoughts. reason why i wanted to come back this Christmas was because i wanted to share the Christmas spirit with the people i love most at home. it would be a crying shame if i spent it overseas, in a mandarin speaking church with me not knowing a quarter of the people in there. but Christmas is after all, all about Christ the Risen Lord. things are not the same when you view this holiday season as something else, i guess it's become innate already. so i shall use this Christmas season as a form of Thanksgiving for those who have desperately missed me (LOL) and those i have sadly left behind. for that, i thank you all.