i've been doing a lot of thinking these few days about things back home; reminiscing of old times, hopeful of the future and many times in deep thought. there are of course some things that cannot be publicly disclosed here due to the complications that may arise if intepreted/ passed on wrongly, knowing that for every sentence that people make on their blogs there will be some tabloids going around spreading false rumours. i'm someone who thinks a lot but the things that i think of hardly ever come true- a worrier? i reckon i am. still, there's a lot more of things ahead of myself to hope for and fight for. thank goodness, this particular issue only stays for the last few minutes before i fly to dreamland. and for every thing that i think of, there has to be something to jumpstart my thinking cap right? believe it or not cnn jumpstarted mine just a few hours ago. there was a report "Czar Putin" and an advertisement on Libya's female fighters. and because this blog is not some global political blog, i shall not go into the horrid details of the report. but it definitely got me thinking; thinking about the sort of things that i want to study in two years time. gender issues, politics, racial issues, the list goes on. still, That particular issue continues to hang around somewhere. maybe i'm not over it; but i'm rather certain i am, though others say i'm not.

like a communist assasin

at the back of the alley, i fled.

there was no screaming, no agony, no pain

it was a silent affair.

at governement house,

after being granted political asylum, i left.

still, i held on to my roots.

i knew, and continue to know.

the ball's still in your court

yet there's another sharing the same space.

maybe mine has been thrown out;

discarded into the box of friends.

nevertheless, i wish you love.