just weird. very very funnily weird. i just didn't feel right when i saw her again. didn't talk to one another. just simple hi's and bye's. and no, my heart didn't beat any faster. just felt so darn weird.
manned the whole entire soundboard for 7pm service today! woohoo- was super fun lahx. thank God for giving me the oppurtunity man! hahaha. real cool stuff. hahaha. and oh, 3pm service's praise and worship was a blast! really cool- could feel the whole presence of God there. really cool. haven't had such an atmosphere for a long long long time le. yepps.
FESTIVAL OF PRAISE! mwahahaha. this friday, sat and sun. meeting cell for 2 nights, of which the first night i'll be split between cell and choir. hahhaa. choir also inviting friends along. hahaha. so fun so fun. hahaha.
to dan and jer.gan: just wanna invite you for this Festival Of Praise. its a Christian music event, really good music, and yeah some of the choir ppl and i are going, and i just wanna cordially invite you 2 to come join us for this spectacular annual event. yepps. really really cool stuff- rockerfied! hahaha. sms me your reply yea? cheer-os!
Sunday, July 31, 2005
Saturday, July 30, 2005
careers fair thingy.... dotdotdot
i must say today's career fair really killed some of my interest in some of the scholarships that i was actually aiming for in the past. i was actually aiming for either the MOE teaching scholarship or the CAAS scholarship, but then theire booths at the careers fair today in school was more that disappointing- it killed my interest for it. ok... not so for the moe one, but still there are others i would want to work towards to.
the singapore power scholarship seemed interesting, as in the stuff you do there. initially i had my doubts of getting a scholarship from singapore power, but now, the officers there are nice enough to at least talk to me unlike SOME booths' officers. woohoo! oh- the one i'm working to is the FIREfly scholarship, then subsequently work in STB. woohoo! the job seemed enticing enough for me to take, besides i can do wat i wana do most- the arts and social science! hahah. so fun. went to the GIC booth, the first booth i went to, so being new to such stuff i just ook the goodie baggie and then ask a few duh qns then walk off. i don't regret it. i don't wanna work in a company which deals with money. irritating. how you spend the money on this and on that, what are the benefits, will there be profits made, etc. ARGH! yeps. my sentiments exactly.
checked out the universities booths- quite sure i'm staying in singapore for my first degree. yepps. and that would be NUS. cause i wanna do arts and social science, i'd rather go NUS than NTU lahx. thinking of doing economics/ political science. engineering would be my second choice. yepps. then i was thinking of going to either the UK or Aus for my honours/ masters. jamie asked me to go aus with her. hmm.. see how lahx sister! hahhaa. but yea. that's wat i was thinking to do.
so if i get the FIREfly scholarship, i'll work with them for permanently. but if i don't, i'll get a arts and social science degree, then join SIA as an air steward, after that come out to do teaching. yepps. it'd be so fun. woohoo! actually i'm still looking forward to be an air steward lohx. hahaha. so fun. hahhaa.
see where the Lord will place me- i will go.
the singapore power scholarship seemed interesting, as in the stuff you do there. initially i had my doubts of getting a scholarship from singapore power, but now, the officers there are nice enough to at least talk to me unlike SOME booths' officers. woohoo! oh- the one i'm working to is the FIREfly scholarship, then subsequently work in STB. woohoo! the job seemed enticing enough for me to take, besides i can do wat i wana do most- the arts and social science! hahah. so fun. went to the GIC booth, the first booth i went to, so being new to such stuff i just ook the goodie baggie and then ask a few duh qns then walk off. i don't regret it. i don't wanna work in a company which deals with money. irritating. how you spend the money on this and on that, what are the benefits, will there be profits made, etc. ARGH! yeps. my sentiments exactly.
checked out the universities booths- quite sure i'm staying in singapore for my first degree. yepps. and that would be NUS. cause i wanna do arts and social science, i'd rather go NUS than NTU lahx. thinking of doing economics/ political science. engineering would be my second choice. yepps. then i was thinking of going to either the UK or Aus for my honours/ masters. jamie asked me to go aus with her. hmm.. see how lahx sister! hahhaa. but yea. that's wat i was thinking to do.
so if i get the FIREfly scholarship, i'll work with them for permanently. but if i don't, i'll get a arts and social science degree, then join SIA as an air steward, after that come out to do teaching. yepps. it'd be so fun. woohoo! actually i'm still looking forward to be an air steward lohx. hahaha. so fun. hahhaa.
see where the Lord will place me- i will go.
Friday, July 29, 2005
2 less lonely people.
I was down my dreams were wearing thin
When you're lost where do you begin
My heart always seemed to drift from day to day
Looking for the love that never came my way
Then you smiled and i reached out to you
I could tell you were lonely too
One look then it all began for you and me
The moment that we touched i knew that there would be
Two less lonely people in the world
And it's gonna be fine
Out of all the people in the world
I just can't believe you're mine
In my life where everything was wrong
In my life where everything was wrong
Something finally went right
Now there's two less lonely people
In the world tonight
Just to think what i might have missed
Looking back how did i exist
I dreamed, still i never thought i'd come this far
But miracles come true, i know 'cause here we are
(chorus)
Tonight i fell in love with you
And all the things i never knew
Seemed to come to me somehow
Baby, love is here and now there's
(repeat chorus)
this song is dedicated to you, daniel thong [woohoo! this song rocks], to my friends who have never failed to support me and lend me that listening ear. thanks a million pals.
Thursday, July 28, 2005
some college day
MWAHAHAHAHA: finally college day's over. and they were saying its like THE most important and mega event in school- i'm so darn sure lahx. the preperations really cannot be compared to vs rehearsals lohx. all the shoutings by the teachers; hahahaha. farni. but singing for college day was really a good feeling cause after pamugun, the whole college [heard it] and really really supported and clapped for us lahx. woohoo! on top of that, minister for education was there too- so it was a double whammy. hahaha. but i must say taht we didn't perform at our peak. yepps. quite disappointing. but still, it was still a double whammy.
[damn, the curry chicken at the buffet dinner after college day was really GOOOOOOOOOOOOD]
hahaha. it was all fun.
the end of college day also marked the end of siao-gao events for the yr ones.
- syf 2005; sov 2005; wasbe; zheng he; cultural fiesta; choral workshop; choral presentation; college day. hahaha. really madness. now that everything's over, i can finally sit down and focus of my studies.
woohoo! really hope EVERYTHING's over. if u know wat i mean.
hahaha. yepps. taht.
[damn, the curry chicken at the buffet dinner after college day was really GOOOOOOOOOOOOD]
hahaha. it was all fun.
the end of college day also marked the end of siao-gao events for the yr ones.
- syf 2005; sov 2005; wasbe; zheng he; cultural fiesta; choral workshop; choral presentation; college day. hahaha. really madness. now that everything's over, i can finally sit down and focus of my studies.
woohoo! really hope EVERYTHING's over. if u know wat i mean.
hahaha. yepps. taht.
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
still trying to forget.
to dan my bro and the cat high choir peeps: WELCOME BACK! hahaha.. sorry couldn't pick you guys up and stuff, cause it was really really late and the next day we had some choral presentation, so yea forgive me yea? hahaha..
hmm. things have changed. i dunnoe. its been really confusing but thank God, talking to liangi thru writing during chinese lesson helped me makemy final decision. actually i dun think many know of my situation- so i guess this post is only for the exclusive who knows bout it. hmm... i realised it's my hypothesis that the first is coming back to me, and its aparent that the second wants a break. so yea- i've thus decided to forget about it totally.
point is; i said this statement for the past dunnoe how many days le. but it has always been reappearing in my mind, the recollections of memories from both experiences have been really really coming back to me. of course not to the extent taht my whole entire being is affected, just disappointed i guess. oh u know wat? last night i turned on the love songs cd, then i sorta slept through it. hahaha. this morning i had the crazy idea that i cried myself to sleep at the table- wat a thought. but yesterday- it all came back. everything. yepps. so maybe i cried, maybe i didn't. fact is i just slept. hahaha.
college day tml. wow. time flies. hahaha.
[ i d u n n o w h y i j u s t s a i d t h a t ]
to dan: get ur phone fast! hahaha. :)
hmm. things have changed. i dunnoe. its been really confusing but thank God, talking to liangi thru writing during chinese lesson helped me makemy final decision. actually i dun think many know of my situation- so i guess this post is only for the exclusive who knows bout it. hmm... i realised it's my hypothesis that the first is coming back to me, and its aparent that the second wants a break. so yea- i've thus decided to forget about it totally.
point is; i said this statement for the past dunnoe how many days le. but it has always been reappearing in my mind, the recollections of memories from both experiences have been really really coming back to me. of course not to the extent taht my whole entire being is affected, just disappointed i guess. oh u know wat? last night i turned on the love songs cd, then i sorta slept through it. hahaha. this morning i had the crazy idea that i cried myself to sleep at the table- wat a thought. but yesterday- it all came back. everything. yepps. so maybe i cried, maybe i didn't. fact is i just slept. hahaha.
college day tml. wow. time flies. hahaha.
[ i d u n n o w h y i j u s t s a i d t h a t ]
to dan: get ur phone fast! hahaha. :)
Thursday, July 21, 2005
confused yet again.
its difficult to let go.
very very difficult to do just so.
you keep on reappearing in the very thing that has decided to
forget you.
scold me for being fickle-minded; i've not gotten
over you.
let go of the reins over my emotions right now
this instant.
it is time for me to move on; to start afresh; to
start anew.
forgetting is painful.
i'm confused.
very very difficult to do just so.
you keep on reappearing in the very thing that has decided to
forget you.
scold me for being fickle-minded; i've not gotten
over you.
let go of the reins over my emotions right now
this instant.
it is time for me to move on; to start afresh; to
start anew.
forgetting is painful.
i'm confused.
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
choral presentation rehearsal
well then. ended school right after chem tutorial- that was like 10+ when the official dismissal was like at 11.35am. hahaha. got break wat- wat you wan me to do? hahaha. and so i slacked my time away- idling it away in a sense. yepps. just slacker me- being myself on a real bad day. yepps.
went for choral presentation rehearsal lahx- tt's why school ended so early for me. hahaha. went to esplanade- and oh! yawen was bitching to me about the fact that the chinese orchestra presentation was held at SCH and not at esplanade. hahaha. too bad lahx. maybe more ppl wanna watch choirs sing. yepps. jsut a maybe only. ahahhaa.
so anyway, went there; we were the first [tell me about being efficient man!], and sorta waited for the other schools to arrive. i think hcjc was next, then the other 3 sec schools namely fairfield methodist sec sch, cedar girls sec, and vs lahx. hahaha. today was the only day we could hear the performing choirs sing, cause on the actual day itself, once we're done singing we go back and grab our stuff and yea go home [tell me about having no life dude!] hahaha. thank goodness we're the last choir to give the whole thing the final bang! hjahaha. so fun fun fun...
fairfield performed first. i thot they were a girls school lahx- so naturally i kena stunned when i saw guys. but frankly, they lived up to their name lahx, their reputation of being a consistent choir. yepps. i think they've won numerous accolades before this yr's gold with honours. yepps. their songs were pretty alright- nice, light hearted and entertaining. definitely. the thing that caught my ear [got such expression huh?] was the first song, ave maris stella. really really really nice and soothing and haunting and really really good. they were good.
cedar went next. i was sitting in front of them at first, their first song was super airy. but subsequently when i sat at the back and heard them, they were pretty good. this happened later like the second or third song le. so i reckon they were not very warmed up yet. yepps. but their sound was "very controlled' to borrow from marucs's words. yepps. nice slow songs.
vs was next. my gosh- they were definitely disappointing. they sang pok pok, some french medley from les choristes, and spirited away medley. the french song was horrid. sounded absolutely like a lao za bo. hahaha. serious. very mellow and dark. but i carnt blame them. half of the choir didn't learn it, and the song's sung in SSA. so for a SATB choir to sing SSA, well i carnt say much. obviously they'd suck at it. any-o-how, their spirited away was not too bad, at least it was up to concert standard. yepps. then again, its a concert song. then they sang pok pok. it was really really good. the first part was well controlled, not really rushing, clean and packed with energy. btu the malalala part ah... hahaha. a bit the wrong. hahaha. but good try.
hcjc was next. they really live up to their golds garnered at the olympics lohx. must really respect and learn from them. loved their 'night', though i felt a bit of the magical lustre was lost. bin-nam-ma never failed to impress me for the 3rd time. elijah rock was beautiful. the other 2 songs- argh, nice but i guess its forgettable. ahhaha. but they were really good. RESPECT!
i shant comment on vjc. but i must say it was a good ATTEMPT. not our best, but it was a good attempt. that was wat i felt. we could have and i believe we WILL do much better on the actual day. yepps.
soooooooooooooo fun!
[ d u n n o w h y i t y p e d t h a t ]
went for choral presentation rehearsal lahx- tt's why school ended so early for me. hahaha. went to esplanade- and oh! yawen was bitching to me about the fact that the chinese orchestra presentation was held at SCH and not at esplanade. hahaha. too bad lahx. maybe more ppl wanna watch choirs sing. yepps. jsut a maybe only. ahahhaa.
so anyway, went there; we were the first [tell me about being efficient man!], and sorta waited for the other schools to arrive. i think hcjc was next, then the other 3 sec schools namely fairfield methodist sec sch, cedar girls sec, and vs lahx. hahaha. today was the only day we could hear the performing choirs sing, cause on the actual day itself, once we're done singing we go back and grab our stuff and yea go home [tell me about having no life dude!] hahaha. thank goodness we're the last choir to give the whole thing the final bang! hjahaha. so fun fun fun...
fairfield performed first. i thot they were a girls school lahx- so naturally i kena stunned when i saw guys. but frankly, they lived up to their name lahx, their reputation of being a consistent choir. yepps. i think they've won numerous accolades before this yr's gold with honours. yepps. their songs were pretty alright- nice, light hearted and entertaining. definitely. the thing that caught my ear [got such expression huh?] was the first song, ave maris stella. really really really nice and soothing and haunting and really really good. they were good.
cedar went next. i was sitting in front of them at first, their first song was super airy. but subsequently when i sat at the back and heard them, they were pretty good. this happened later like the second or third song le. so i reckon they were not very warmed up yet. yepps. but their sound was "very controlled' to borrow from marucs's words. yepps. nice slow songs.
vs was next. my gosh- they were definitely disappointing. they sang pok pok, some french medley from les choristes, and spirited away medley. the french song was horrid. sounded absolutely like a lao za bo. hahaha. serious. very mellow and dark. but i carnt blame them. half of the choir didn't learn it, and the song's sung in SSA. so for a SATB choir to sing SSA, well i carnt say much. obviously they'd suck at it. any-o-how, their spirited away was not too bad, at least it was up to concert standard. yepps. then again, its a concert song. then they sang pok pok. it was really really good. the first part was well controlled, not really rushing, clean and packed with energy. btu the malalala part ah... hahaha. a bit the wrong. hahaha. but good try.
hcjc was next. they really live up to their golds garnered at the olympics lohx. must really respect and learn from them. loved their 'night', though i felt a bit of the magical lustre was lost. bin-nam-ma never failed to impress me for the 3rd time. elijah rock was beautiful. the other 2 songs- argh, nice but i guess its forgettable. ahhaha. but they were really good. RESPECT!
i shant comment on vjc. but i must say it was a good ATTEMPT. not our best, but it was a good attempt. that was wat i felt. we could have and i believe we WILL do much better on the actual day. yepps.
soooooooooooooo fun!
[ d u n n o w h y i t y p e d t h a t ]
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
hmmm.
hmmm.
-speechless.
i'm confused.
to that special one: i will hold on. i just pray that my decision is not wrong.
-confused.
-speechless.
i'm confused.
to that special one: i will hold on. i just pray that my decision is not wrong.
-confused.
Friday, July 15, 2005
gonna be lonely for some time.
heh. life's never been better. hahhaa. serious. no sarcasm intended. relationships with friends [friendship; :)] has been good, choir has been alright [picking up its pace], and many other stuff also lahx. so far my results are as such: chem D, physics D, math F, chinese B4. yepps. but i'm pretty much determined to get at least a B B B B for promos. at least for math. yepps. really really felt that i disappointed myself and the tutors. yepps.
cat high choir gng off soon. yepps. gonna send them off later. must lahx. considering that they are going to china for nearly 10days. i seriously carnt imagine. hahaa. but the whole thing will be so darn fun lahx. my gosh. hahaha. fun fun fun. nothing but fun. hahaha. singing with your bosom friends by your side, i mean wat can you ask for more? yepps. so this whole entry is dedicated to them.
to jeremy gan, gen rong, and daniel thong: yo brudders! i think by the time you read this entry, you'd have gone to china already, probably and back from it too. yeah- a bit the late lahx i know, but heyx at least you guys are reading this now. hahaha. this is so fun. going on a 10day nearly seem to be holiday with your friends is seriously the coolest thing to do! especially going in the middle of the school term. woohoo! hahaha. so farn. hahhaa. yaaaay.definitely gonna miss you guys, i mean the times and experiences we shared. the smses we sent to one another. yepps. little wonder that i consider all 3 of you my bros, rather than my friends. yepps. sing your best, give it your best, yepps, allow me to use the vschoir tag k? just sing it. yepps. i mean do your best, even if you dun sound as good as the others, you know you;ve done your best and yeah walk out with your heads held up high! yuppidy yepps. hahaha.
to daniel: bro! definitely gonna miss ya. i think i'm gonna be so darn lonely. not being able to talk so freely to another person about stuff- all kinds. yepps. hahha. so excited for the 3 of ya! hahaha. carnt imagine wat yiu guys are gonna do there. hahah. eat tim sum the whole day. hahaha. totally a no-lifer. hahaha. speak biao zun chinese hor. hahaha. dun malu urslef in china. ahhaha. so farn. so farn. hahaha. haix. i'm jsut thinking of watching a 'friends' dvd now. hahaha...
alrighty then, i think i'd better go start preparing thes stuff we planned for you 3 special ppl. hahaha. expect some good stuff coming your way. dun worry! we'll be praying for ya everyday! yepps :)
cat high choir gng off soon. yepps. gonna send them off later. must lahx. considering that they are going to china for nearly 10days. i seriously carnt imagine. hahaa. but the whole thing will be so darn fun lahx. my gosh. hahaha. fun fun fun. nothing but fun. hahaha. singing with your bosom friends by your side, i mean wat can you ask for more? yepps. so this whole entry is dedicated to them.
to jeremy gan, gen rong, and daniel thong: yo brudders! i think by the time you read this entry, you'd have gone to china already, probably and back from it too. yeah- a bit the late lahx i know, but heyx at least you guys are reading this now. hahaha. this is so fun. going on a 10day nearly seem to be holiday with your friends is seriously the coolest thing to do! especially going in the middle of the school term. woohoo! hahaha. so farn. hahhaa. yaaaay.definitely gonna miss you guys, i mean the times and experiences we shared. the smses we sent to one another. yepps. little wonder that i consider all 3 of you my bros, rather than my friends. yepps. sing your best, give it your best, yepps, allow me to use the vschoir tag k? just sing it. yepps. i mean do your best, even if you dun sound as good as the others, you know you;ve done your best and yeah walk out with your heads held up high! yuppidy yepps. hahaha.
to daniel: bro! definitely gonna miss ya. i think i'm gonna be so darn lonely. not being able to talk so freely to another person about stuff- all kinds. yepps. hahha. so excited for the 3 of ya! hahaha. carnt imagine wat yiu guys are gonna do there. hahah. eat tim sum the whole day. hahaha. totally a no-lifer. hahaha. speak biao zun chinese hor. hahaha. dun malu urslef in china. ahhaha. so farn. so farn. hahaha. haix. i'm jsut thinking of watching a 'friends' dvd now. hahaha...
alrighty then, i think i'd better go start preparing thes stuff we planned for you 3 special ppl. hahaha. expect some good stuff coming your way. dun worry! we'll be praying for ya everyday! yepps :)
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
reminiscing.
wooohoo! the wasbe event is finally over! so thankful. all the tung and the tak-s of sang nila. heh. the whole thing was fun on the whole, getting all 3 choirs all pretty much acquainted with one another, and yeah, we sorta learnt a lot more techniques and stuff. yepps. THANKS MR GOH! :)
hmmm... havent been up here for a damn long time le. i guess there's really been too much things happening around me. too much for me to handle. but yet it is at this times taht i forget about sharing and giving all my burdens to God, but rather hold back all taht breaking my heart back. its been such a tough time. but thank God, gave Him all my burdens. i really feel so much more at peace now. seriously. yepps. so i'm pretty alright. yepps. but if you're still intetrested to find out- yeah i was concerned about the dsa thing as well as her [if you're reading this, please read on.. there's something i need to say] yeah. so i guess its these 2 things taht's been really tying me down at that time. now: i'm alright.
to dsa brothers [cathigh-brudders]: read this with the idea taht a friend and a brother is talking and not as a vjchoir student talking to ya. errrs. all i wanna say is do your best, wherever you go, whatever decision you make, rest accured taht your bro here will support you 2 all the way. of course as a vjchoir senior to you, i'll be disappointed. but i figured if i felt and think that way, it'd be so selfish of me. yepps. so yeah- do your best, make the right choices, some of the choir ppl and i will be praying for ya along the way. yepps. :) keep smiling.
to my dearies: its been a tough time hiding so much from you. all the different and mixed thoughts and feelings taht came along the way while we were in that 'i dunnoe wat's happening to us' preiod. yepps. but i respect your decision, and yepps., i'd support it. whether or not we get back in the coming years, well that'll be a different issue altogether, but for now: err. i'm sorry.
Dear God: please take this 2 issues from me. i don't this to tie me down, causing my life to be sluggish and unproductive for you. let me be a vessel for you. please God, i thank you for all that you've done for me in the past month and days of 'torment' right now, i give it all to you. take it, and i know that its safe and well taken care of cause its in the hands and the arms of the almighty God. i know that everything will turn out alright in the end, it will according to your will and divine plan for us all. AMEN.
hmmm... havent been up here for a damn long time le. i guess there's really been too much things happening around me. too much for me to handle. but yet it is at this times taht i forget about sharing and giving all my burdens to God, but rather hold back all taht breaking my heart back. its been such a tough time. but thank God, gave Him all my burdens. i really feel so much more at peace now. seriously. yepps. so i'm pretty alright. yepps. but if you're still intetrested to find out- yeah i was concerned about the dsa thing as well as her [if you're reading this, please read on.. there's something i need to say] yeah. so i guess its these 2 things taht's been really tying me down at that time. now: i'm alright.
to dsa brothers [cathigh-brudders]: read this with the idea taht a friend and a brother is talking and not as a vjchoir student talking to ya. errrs. all i wanna say is do your best, wherever you go, whatever decision you make, rest accured taht your bro here will support you 2 all the way. of course as a vjchoir senior to you, i'll be disappointed. but i figured if i felt and think that way, it'd be so selfish of me. yepps. so yeah- do your best, make the right choices, some of the choir ppl and i will be praying for ya along the way. yepps. :) keep smiling.
to my dearies: its been a tough time hiding so much from you. all the different and mixed thoughts and feelings taht came along the way while we were in that 'i dunnoe wat's happening to us' preiod. yepps. but i respect your decision, and yepps., i'd support it. whether or not we get back in the coming years, well that'll be a different issue altogether, but for now: err. i'm sorry.
Dear God: please take this 2 issues from me. i don't this to tie me down, causing my life to be sluggish and unproductive for you. let me be a vessel for you. please God, i thank you for all that you've done for me in the past month and days of 'torment' right now, i give it all to you. take it, and i know that its safe and well taken care of cause its in the hands and the arms of the almighty God. i know that everything will turn out alright in the end, it will according to your will and divine plan for us all. AMEN.
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