well then, i just came back from johor, malaysia this afternoon after staying there for 3 days and 2 nights. was like a trip back to the sixties in Singapore, everything there especially the roadside shops reminded me of the old floor tiles of the old shophouses that i used to go in the past. the hotel i stayed in was really a not too bad budget hotel and since i haven't exactly been to a budget hotel 'cept for that sickening dorsett in hong kong, i can't realyl compare. but space wise, this TOTALLY THRASH. but in terms of cleanliness, ah that i don't know.

(and i just realised that i'm typing in NEAR proper english, wth. )

and yea, bought myself quite a number of cheap stuff there. eh, the stuff i buy cannot be found locally at the price i paid for it. every piece of clothing was less than twenty singapore dollars. so it was a rather good buy. remembered i went to the G2000 shop there, and there was a 50% discount there, thus the shirts are not that expensive as compared to the ones we have here.

so i shall talk about it more when i get back here online. i need to sleep already. sleep-defiocient. wahahha.

lemme ask you,
is there even the slightest
possibility that there'll be a
Reunion?

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY!

father, i love ya.

in that little room
squeezed thirteen small bodies
- cramped, stuffy; united.
that was how it began.

back in that room
sat eight mature adults
- space, cool; united.
back to how it began.

let you in on a secret, old cell- when i was back in that house, somehow memories started coming back. right from the moment i stepped onto the steps to the house, something familiar was coming back to me, till the moment i sat down and ate at the table; something was happening. LOL. it was a fantastic night, and it only reminded me and is a testimony to the phrase 'ABSENCE MAKES THE HEART GROW FONDER'. it was a fantastic night everyone.

thanks for making this night so special and 'old'!!! haha. hello there zhi xuan and stanford, welcome to the good ol' cell group i was from! never failed to be proud of being from this cell! LOL.

love you people.
like loads.

i thought of your xmas gift-

a box of dandruff.

bryan, kenna cheated- nothing here!

but really, go ahead with it.

i love rain.

caroling season just begun!

i was just watching the telly just now and was just rather 'put off (i really cannot find any other words to describe the feeling)' at the congratulatory advertisement to team singapore for their stellar performance at the asian games in doha.

why? simply because when we struck gold in italy at the international choral competition there, we received no congratulatory message from anybody with exception of the school and our local choral support. now now now, from the bottom of my heart i really do think that team singapore did very well- stellar performance really! the way tao li went against all odds and beat strong competition from swimming poweerhouses china and japan; the way our bowlers went on strong till the end; the way our young athletes did so so well at the games, all these have truly made me feel proud to be a singaporean.

but yet somehow i feel that there is such a biasness to the arts groups here in Singapore. well, maybe it's because there ain't no live telecast of the arts competition here in singapore or maybe there ain't a strong base of support for these budding arts groups here in singapore. hold on a second, i just recalled that sports for the physically impaired also do not get as much attention as us. then again, at least they get some support from some external organisation, we don't. *sigh* what else can i say? somehow when i watch that advertisement, i don't feel as if the choir i was in achieved as much as team singapore in doha although we won 3 golds there. i don't even feel as if i represent singapore when i sing at such an international competition.

"where is that 4 million strong sideline that came with Team Singapore?"

don't we want our little nation to be known internationally to be not just as a sporting powerhouse but one that is equally involved in the arts? are we balanced? what sort of signal are we sending to our budding young talents in these arts-related groups? well i can't say for all, but personally i don't really feel that sort of national pride when i sing and win for that matter- basically, i don't feel that i won the coveted medal for my nation, instead, i feel i won it more for my choir and school. is that the sort of 'national pride' that we are trying to instill here in the people?

you know it really brings me great Great GREAT pleasure whenever i'm reminded of the international rankings that the VICTORIA JUNIOR COLLEGE CHOIR is 9th IN THE WORLD and 2nd INTERNATIONALLY IN THE MIXED CHOIR CATEGORY even without the support of you, external organistations. so kudos and lots of thanks to everybody at vjc for your support and encouragement.

no thanks to you external organisations.
go reflect.

i have come to the firm conclusion that flickr is rather useless.

imagestation rox.

HK HK HK ! ! !

well then, i just came back from hong kong this morning on the jetstar asia airways plane landing at the airport here at around 12.15am (when we were supposed to have landed at 11.50pm the day before). well, the delay was due to, according to the pilots, the late arrival of the plane from singapore to hk so i suppose it sort of pushed back the schedules a bit huh. anyways, the flight to and fro were rather comfortable if you ask me. that is if you are just looking for a flight that just allows you to sleep and do nothing else, cause really there really ain't nothing to do on board the plane. no inflight entertainment- except for a really pathetic magazine about asia; no good luxury food that you would find on board a singapore airlines or cathay flight; basically nothing. well, i tried the fried egg noodles with seaweed roll dish and i must say the 8 dollars you're paying really is just to fill your tummy and not to tantalise your lovely lil' taste buds. trust me on this, it ain't fantastic but it's edible, at least. and oh i won some travel voucher on my way back through some lucky draw, so i just might go overseas just before i enlist next year.

went on this trip with 12 other people, i think- namely francis, louisa, camillus, tim, peimin, daphne, zuo yi, zihua, cynthia, qixin, joan and not forgetting my roommate karfu...

HALT! if you're thinking this entire entry is gonna be the hotspots we went to and the details of each and every segment of my trip, you can just press ALT- F4 now, cause i won't be doing just that. i ain't got much of a photographic memory, and neither do i have the time to type all that down. and even if i do fulfill both requirements, i probably won't type it down here will i? i might as well type it into notepad or word and send to some publication company and then sell it to you. ha.

... and as i was saying, we went to many places lahx. temple street, ladies street, central, admiralty jordan, and many of the heartlands where there were a considerable amount of shopping which could be done there. haha. and since i'm here at this juncture, i might as well tell you what in the world i bought so here goes-

- 3 bags

- 1 t-shirt

- 1 vcd

- 1 lovely fake watch

- 4 lil bottles

- 1 pair of earrings

- 5 leather-back notebooks

- 1 G2000 tie

- 1 pair of nike running gear

- 1 bottle of liquor

- 1 pack of beer

- and some more stuff that i cannot remember now.

yea, so you can probably know how much i spent here. if you're thinking that i spent like tens of thousands of dollars here, forget it. every item i bought was less than 100HKD. haha. i bargained like mad lahx. totally a mamasan- wait, that's no meaning. HAHA. but yea, you get the idea. we shopped like mad and come to think of it, my feet stil hurts today. and i think this trip has had a negative effect on me- I'M HOOKED ON SHOPPING!! after i went home, i immediately left home to send taoyat and potato off and then headed down to town to window shopp. so technically i didn't sleep since 9am yesterday morning, quite pro huh. haha. okay lahx, not that pro cause i slept like 2hours on the plane and 45mins at the airport but yea, you get the point. PS: don't find fault with me if you can not sleep for like 10,000 years.

guessed i learnt a lot throughout this trip, not just in terms of the dialect, but yea of myself as well. kudos to karfu (give yourself a pat on your back if you're reading this karfu!) who helped me see things that i previously was so oblivant to. i definitely learnt a lot and i definitely absolutely enjoyed every moment of it. and it's so true that a holiday is really a holiday if your company makes it a holiday. haha.

alright, i shall end here. photos should be up tonight i think. haha. till then, byeeeee~

it seems like i've been focusing

too much on The problem

when all i needed to see

was myself.

probably the last post on you.

i walked into the space.
expecting something

, and then ,

i walked out of it.
leaving everything

you were beautiful, sensual
in the evening splendour.
steal a glance and look at me!
things from here gets no better.

you may not have caught
what i wanted to say,
instead you already planned
on giving it away.

i was broken but laughed it off-
"c'mon boy, let go of it all!"
. . . that's why i leave you behind,
attempting to forget what i saw.

just remember why it was given
- the statement of my love
keep it close to your bosom
for tonight ends it all.

maybe it is easier for us this way- i voluntarily drop out of this game; you can have the joy of picking from a smaller basket of good fruits. i have resolved within me that when the farmer comes and picks the fallen fruit up and attempts to eat it, things will just not work out for both fruit and human. give it up- we ain't kidding ourselves anymore. i know where this will lead to and i'm certain of the future for me if you partake of me. we ain't kidding ourselves anymore. pick a fruit from the basket, i heard they have shone their best brillance to you so now take your pick. i wish you all the best in your future ahead.

PS: sdd photos are uploaded at
http://www.flickr.com/photos/63962536@N00/

PROM/ SDD'06- HOLLYWOOD

and so i just came back from my first ever prom night (cause vs didn't have one; even till now) and i must say i wasn't exactly pleased with it? hmmm. it was alright lahx; possibly because i don't have any other prom nights to compare to- well that's my rationale. it was so-so if you ask me. hmmm so here's wat happened-

went to ritz-carlton at round 6.20pm and the moment i stepped out of the cab i realised that my right sole was dropping off- it must have been due to the rough handling the day before cause the shoe was a lil' uncomfortable; it was new by the way. so i sorta freaked out a lil' and i was more anxious to find people i know outside the ballroom rather than worry bout my shoe. so i walked down the stairs and i guess people were sorta talking about me, i dunno bout wat but i sorta guessed that i was wearing cream/ white suit and everybody else were like wearing black. haha. but back to the sole. left my stuff at the table with difei to look after and then rushed up to the main entrance where a lovely staff member came and helped me with the directions to the nearest cobbler. so i made my way to the cobbler in millenia walk and guess wat- my sole came off right there in harvey norman! gosh. lucky no one behind me if not it'll be damn malu lahx! wahaha. so to prevent any more malu-ness, i hid my sole in my blazer and walked to the cobbler there. and then guess wat- the cobbler told me he can't mend my shoe! like WTH! "c'mon man, the boy here needs to go for a function and you won't even help me this one bit..." but yea, but he was nice and directed me to suntec where i finally fixed my shoe and it was all good. rushed back to the hotel and i wasn't late. in fact the entire event started late. haha. everybody was just outside the ballroom photo-whoring and trying to get over their beauty while others just look on with envy. haha.

yeah. it started like an hour late i guess cause cousin told me so. and by the time it started it was like 8pm? don't really know. i sat at the table right in front of the emergency exit so in case there was a fire, i'd be one of the first to live. wahahha. no meaning, but soon the event started and i recall quite vividly the excitement i felt cause it's my first prom night? then when the emcee went on stage, he was like omg. GET HIM OFF THE STAGE MAN! irritatingly funny in the not funny way. yea that's that. haha. but it's true lahx, even some of my classmates said at some points his tone's not that right for the occasion. haha.

and then the night started with a salsa dance by some external people who were fantastic. then they brought out the pageants and they walked down the runway- alright but some looked clumsily funny. haha. then walk somemore, then errr. okay lohx. dinner started which was so minimal (in total) that i suppose the amount given to us can't even feed a kid. yea- that bad. haha. but quality wise- it was good. haha. then the pageants started dancing the waltz. no meaning, but it was boring watching them spin here and there with not much energy and variation. haha. so-so.

eat some more, then was feeling bored already so went to look for the choir girls, which i then told them to go find all year twos and we meet outside to take some photos lahx which we obviously did. totally 3 photographers came to take photos for us and hey, they didn't even take photos with all our cameras. gah. then we started singing songs at another place which definitely brought back memories- in italy, in sov, in choir. sang some chirstmas songs which already made heads and ears turned to us, and with ad dominum and shower to end it all, it simply brought back memories. haha. fantastic. really looking forward to seeing you guys at carolling! hahah .

went back in, four toads came out and immediately i left. sickening. socialised a bit then went back when i saw jasmine tye walk in. haha. so i was kinda visibly surprised lahx, but nevertheless didn't really thing bout entry.hah

daniel band rox. have been a fan of them since day one, truly a band that we year twos can be proud of. performance was good just that keyboard ain't loud enough to match up the lead and bass. and after taht, jasmine came out and sung foolish games which to me were good. haha. so it was quite a surprise lahx i suppose. then she started giving out some prizes liek the prom queen and king sorta thing and gah- was alright only lahx. haha.

but i must say that the prizes up for grabs were damn good- trip to perth, cruise trip, iPod nano, creative merchandise, nike ball. yea. haha. good stuff.man. gah. but didn't win anything. my number was 0400, which is really too nice a number to win any lucky draw. haha. dun bother.

and then it ended at around 12.15am with some really loud music which kinda blew my ears away and then some people were dancing on the dance floor while others streamed out. ahah. a massive pack of people outside as compared to the ballroom. hah. so obviously finding people will be difficult right? haha. it sure was. gah. took quite some time to get everybody ready and go out partying!

we didn't go post-prom party at DXO, some of us don't have the cash, some don't wanna drink and i personally... DON'T MIND. haha. yea. but in the end, we ended up walking to clarke quay where we ate at satay club. it was at this club that cam sang with the guitarist *clap hands lah* hahha. was sorta invited up on stage to sing a few pieces which he did. haha. and then shortly after that at around 3am, we went to macs at liang court. chilled out there and basically juxt talked and boozing around. haha. since the food at the hotel wasn't filling, we ate somemore loh! haha. lou then bought some bacardi's rum from 7-11 and then only karfu, herself and i took shots each. haha. was alright lahx. raw shots that is- okay lahx, but damn it dries the throat. so we hung around there for about 2hours and left only at around 5am. ahahah.

walked down the pavement when we finally decided to climb up to the top of fort canning park which we eventually did and went down to the plaza singapura side. took us around 45mins ba and then we took a train where some of us went home and the rest just sat at the gates deciding wat to do. well i'm supposed to be sleeping cause they're supposed to meet at 2pm online to discuss of a possible mahjong session at cam's place. haha. hmmm. so i think i should try to get a shut-eye soon.

to my dear S43: i'll upload the photos soon ya? not as yet... not as yet...

in conclusion,
consider the fault to be mine
i've given up
and i will move on.

you still have not known
and you will never know
the things concealed from you
the past i give up

make your move competitor
i don't give a bull anymore
she ain't no commodity
and all i ask of you is...

to take care of her well.

the boy prepares to rumble.

PHOTO WHORE COMING THROUGH.

wondering when i'll see you again.

hey there guys of 4B- i really do wonder when will it be the last time i see you guys again; each and every one of you guys.

STAY IN TOUCH FELLAS!!!

don't think you're irreplaceable.

that space remains empty-