Friday, December 29, 2006

well then, i just came back from johor, malaysia this afternoon after staying there for 3 days and 2 nights. was like a trip back to the sixties in Singapore, everything there especially the roadside shops reminded me of the old floor tiles of the old shophouses that i used to go in the past. the hotel i stayed in was really a not too bad budget hotel and since i haven't exactly been to a budget hotel 'cept for that sickening dorsett in hong kong, i can't realyl compare. but space wise, this TOTALLY THRASH. but in terms of cleanliness, ah that i don't know.

(and i just realised that i'm typing in NEAR proper english, wth. )


and yea, bought myself quite a number of cheap stuff there. eh, the stuff i buy cannot be found locally at the price i paid for it. every piece of clothing was less than twenty singapore dollars. so it was a rather good buy. remembered i went to the G2000 shop there, and there was a 50% discount there, thus the shirts are not that expensive as compared to the ones we have here.

so i shall talk about it more when i get back here online. i need to sleep already. sleep-defiocient. wahahha.

lemme ask you,
is there even the slightest
possibility that there'll be a
Reunion?

Monday, December 25, 2006

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY!

father, i love ya.

Saturday, December 23, 2006

in that little room
squeezed thirteen small bodies
- cramped, stuffy; united.
that was how it began.

back in that room
sat eight mature adults
- space, cool; united.
back to how it began.

let you in on a secret, old cell- when i was back in that house, somehow memories started coming back. right from the moment i stepped onto the steps to the house, something familiar was coming back to me, till the moment i sat down and ate at the table; something was happening. LOL. it was a fantastic night, and it only reminded me and is a testimony to the phrase 'ABSENCE MAKES THE HEART GROW FONDER'. it was a fantastic night everyone.

thanks for making this night so special and 'old'!!! haha. hello there zhi xuan and stanford, welcome to the good ol' cell group i was from! never failed to be proud of being from this cell! LOL.

love you people.
like loads.

Friday, December 22, 2006

i thought of your xmas gift-

a box of dandruff.

Thursday, December 21, 2006

bryan, kenna cheated- nothing here!

but really, go ahead with it.

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

i love rain.

caroling season just begun!

Monday, December 18, 2006

i was just watching the telly just now and was just rather 'put off (i really cannot find any other words to describe the feeling)' at the congratulatory advertisement to team singapore for their stellar performance at the asian games in doha.

why? simply because when we struck gold in italy at the international choral competition there, we received no congratulatory message from anybody with exception of the school and our local choral support. now now now, from the bottom of my heart i really do think that team singapore did very well- stellar performance really! the way tao li went against all odds and beat strong competition from swimming poweerhouses china and japan; the way our bowlers went on strong till the end; the way our young athletes did so so well at the games, all these have truly made me feel proud to be a singaporean.

but yet somehow i feel that there is such a biasness to the arts groups here in Singapore. well, maybe it's because there ain't no live telecast of the arts competition here in singapore or maybe there ain't a strong base of support for these budding arts groups here in singapore. hold on a second, i just recalled that sports for the physically impaired also do not get as much attention as us. then again, at least they get some support from some external organisation, we don't. *sigh* what else can i say? somehow when i watch that advertisement, i don't feel as if the choir i was in achieved as much as team singapore in doha although we won 3 golds there. i don't even feel as if i represent singapore when i sing at such an international competition.

"where is that 4 million strong sideline that came with Team Singapore?"
don't we want our little nation to be known internationally to be not just as a sporting powerhouse but one that is equally involved in the arts? are we balanced? what sort of signal are we sending to our budding young talents in these arts-related groups? well i can't say for all, but personally i don't really feel that sort of national pride when i sing and win for that matter- basically, i don't feel that i won the coveted medal for my nation, instead, i feel i won it more for my choir and school. is that the sort of 'national pride' that we are trying to instill here in the people?

you know it really brings me great Great GREAT pleasure whenever i'm reminded of the international rankings that the VICTORIA JUNIOR COLLEGE CHOIR is 9th IN THE WORLD and 2nd INTERNATIONALLY IN THE MIXED CHOIR CATEGORY even without the support of you, external organistations. so kudos and lots of thanks to everybody at vjc for your support and encouragement.

no thanks to you external organisations.
go reflect.
i have come to the firm conclusion that flickr is rather useless.

imagestation rox.

Friday, December 15, 2006

HK HK HK ! ! !

well then, i just came back from hong kong this morning on the jetstar asia airways plane landing at the airport here at around 12.15am (when we were supposed to have landed at 11.50pm the day before). well, the delay was due to, according to the pilots, the late arrival of the plane from singapore to hk so i suppose it sort of pushed back the schedules a bit huh. anyways, the flight to and fro were rather comfortable if you ask me. that is if you are just looking for a flight that just allows you to sleep and do nothing else, cause really there really ain't nothing to do on board the plane. no inflight entertainment- except for a really pathetic magazine about asia; no good luxury food that you would find on board a singapore airlines or cathay flight; basically nothing. well, i tried the fried egg noodles with seaweed roll dish and i must say the 8 dollars you're paying really is just to fill your tummy and not to tantalise your lovely lil' taste buds. trust me on this, it ain't fantastic but it's edible, at least. and oh i won some travel voucher on my way back through some lucky draw, so i just might go overseas just before i enlist next year.

went on this trip with 12 other people, i think- namely francis, louisa, camillus, tim, peimin, daphne, zuo yi, zihua, cynthia, qixin, joan and not forgetting my roommate karfu...

HALT! if you're thinking this entire entry is gonna be the hotspots we went to and the details of each and every segment of my trip, you can just press ALT- F4 now, cause i won't be doing just that. i ain't got much of a photographic memory, and neither do i have the time to type all that down. and even if i do fulfill both requirements, i probably won't type it down here will i? i might as well type it into notepad or word and send to some publication company and then sell it to you. ha.

... and as i was saying, we went to many places lahx. temple street, ladies street, central, admiralty jordan, and many of the heartlands where there were a considerable amount of shopping which could be done there. haha. and since i'm here at this juncture, i might as well tell you what in the world i bought so here goes-

- 3 bags
- 1 t-shirt
- 1 vcd
- 1 lovely fake watch
- 4 lil bottles
- 1 pair of earrings
- 5 leather-back notebooks
- 1 G2000 tie
- 1 pair of nike running gear
- 1 bottle of liquor
- 1 pack of beer
- and some more stuff that i cannot remember now.

yea, so you can probably know how much i spent here. if you're thinking that i spent like tens of thousands of dollars here, forget it. every item i bought was less than 100HKD. haha. i bargained like mad lahx. totally a mamasan- wait, that's no meaning. HAHA. but yea, you get the idea. we shopped like mad and come to think of it, my feet stil hurts today. and i think this trip has had a negative effect on me- I'M HOOKED ON SHOPPING!! after i went home, i immediately left home to send taoyat and potato off and then headed down to town to window shopp. so technically i didn't sleep since 9am yesterday morning, quite pro huh. haha. okay lahx, not that pro cause i slept like 2hours on the plane and 45mins at the airport but yea, you get the point. PS: don't find fault with me if you can not sleep for like 10,000 years.

guessed i learnt a lot throughout this trip, not just in terms of the dialect, but yea of myself as well. kudos to karfu (give yourself a pat on your back if you're reading this karfu!) who helped me see things that i previously was so oblivant to. i definitely learnt a lot and i definitely absolutely enjoyed every moment of it. and it's so true that a holiday is really a holiday if your company makes it a holiday. haha.
alright, i shall end here. photos should be up tonight i think. haha. till then, byeeeee~
it seems like i've been focusing
too much on The problem
when all i needed to see
was myself.

Saturday, December 09, 2006

probably the last post on you.

i walked into the space.
expecting something
, and then ,
i walked out of it.
leaving everything

you were beautiful, sensual
in the evening splendour.
steal a glance and look at me!
things from here gets no better.

you may not have caught
what i wanted to say,
instead you already planned
on giving it away.

i was broken but laughed it off-
"c'mon boy, let go of it all!"
. . . that's why i leave you behind,
attempting to forget what i saw.

just remember why it was given
- the statement of my love
keep it close to your bosom
for tonight ends it all.

maybe it is easier for us this way- i voluntarily drop out of this game; you can have the joy of picking from a smaller basket of good fruits. i have resolved within me that when the farmer comes and picks the fallen fruit up and attempts to eat it, things will just not work out for both fruit and human. give it up- we ain't kidding ourselves anymore. i know where this will lead to and i'm certain of the future for me if you partake of me. we ain't kidding ourselves anymore. pick a fruit from the basket, i heard they have shone their best brillance to you so now take your pick. i wish you all the best in your future ahead.





PS: sdd photos are uploaded at
http://www.flickr.com/photos/63962536@N00/

Thursday, December 07, 2006

PROM/ SDD'06- HOLLYWOOD

and so i just came back from my first ever prom night (cause vs didn't have one; even till now) and i must say i wasn't exactly pleased with it? hmmm. it was alright lahx; possibly because i don't have any other prom nights to compare to- well that's my rationale. it was so-so if you ask me. hmmm so here's wat happened-

went to ritz-carlton at round 6.20pm and the moment i stepped out of the cab i realised that my right sole was dropping off- it must have been due to the rough handling the day before cause the shoe was a lil' uncomfortable; it was new by the way. so i sorta freaked out a lil' and i was more anxious to find people i know outside the ballroom rather than worry bout my shoe. so i walked down the stairs and i guess people were sorta talking about me, i dunno bout wat but i sorta guessed that i was wearing cream/ white suit and everybody else were like wearing black. haha. but back to the sole. left my stuff at the table with difei to look after and then rushed up to the main entrance where a lovely staff member came and helped me with the directions to the nearest cobbler. so i made my way to the cobbler in millenia walk and guess wat- my sole came off right there in harvey norman! gosh. lucky no one behind me if not it'll be damn malu lahx! wahaha. so to prevent any more malu-ness, i hid my sole in my blazer and walked to the cobbler there. and then guess wat- the cobbler told me he can't mend my shoe! like WTH! "c'mon man, the boy here needs to go for a function and you won't even help me this one bit..." but yea, but he was nice and directed me to suntec where i finally fixed my shoe and it was all good. rushed back to the hotel and i wasn't late. in fact the entire event started late. haha. everybody was just outside the ballroom photo-whoring and trying to get over their beauty while others just look on with envy. haha.

yeah. it started like an hour late i guess cause cousin told me so. and by the time it started it was like 8pm? don't really know. i sat at the table right in front of the emergency exit so in case there was a fire, i'd be one of the first to live. wahahha. no meaning, but soon the event started and i recall quite vividly the excitement i felt cause it's my first prom night? then when the emcee went on stage, he was like omg. GET HIM OFF THE STAGE MAN! irritatingly funny in the not funny way. yea that's that. haha. but it's true lahx, even some of my classmates said at some points his tone's not that right for the occasion. haha.

and then the night started with a salsa dance by some external people who were fantastic. then they brought out the pageants and they walked down the runway- alright but some looked clumsily funny. haha. then walk somemore, then errr. okay lohx. dinner started which was so minimal (in total) that i suppose the amount given to us can't even feed a kid. yea- that bad. haha. but quality wise- it was good. haha. then the pageants started dancing the waltz. no meaning, but it was boring watching them spin here and there with not much energy and variation. haha. so-so.

eat some more, then was feeling bored already so went to look for the choir girls, which i then told them to go find all year twos and we meet outside to take some photos lahx which we obviously did. totally 3 photographers came to take photos for us and hey, they didn't even take photos with all our cameras. gah. then we started singing songs at another place which definitely brought back memories- in italy, in sov, in choir. sang some chirstmas songs which already made heads and ears turned to us, and with ad dominum and shower to end it all, it simply brought back memories. haha. fantastic. really looking forward to seeing you guys at carolling! hahah .

went back in, four toads came out and immediately i left. sickening. socialised a bit then went back when i saw jasmine tye walk in. haha. so i was kinda visibly surprised lahx, but nevertheless didn't really thing bout entry.hah

daniel band rox. have been a fan of them since day one, truly a band that we year twos can be proud of. performance was good just that keyboard ain't loud enough to match up the lead and bass. and after taht, jasmine came out and sung foolish games which to me were good. haha. so it was quite a surprise lahx i suppose. then she started giving out some prizes liek the prom queen and king sorta thing and gah- was alright only lahx. haha.

but i must say that the prizes up for grabs were damn good- trip to perth, cruise trip, iPod nano, creative merchandise, nike ball. yea. haha. good stuff.man. gah. but didn't win anything. my number was 0400, which is really too nice a number to win any lucky draw. haha. dun bother.

and then it ended at around 12.15am with some really loud music which kinda blew my ears away and then some people were dancing on the dance floor while others streamed out. ahah. a massive pack of people outside as compared to the ballroom. hah. so obviously finding people will be difficult right? haha. it sure was. gah. took quite some time to get everybody ready and go out partying!

we didn't go post-prom party at DXO, some of us don't have the cash, some don't wanna drink and i personally... DON'T MIND. haha. yea. but in the end, we ended up walking to clarke quay where we ate at satay club. it was at this club that cam sang with the guitarist *clap hands lah* hahha. was sorta invited up on stage to sing a few pieces which he did. haha. and then shortly after that at around 3am, we went to macs at liang court. chilled out there and basically juxt talked and boozing around. haha. since the food at the hotel wasn't filling, we ate somemore loh! haha. lou then bought some bacardi's rum from 7-11 and then only karfu, herself and i took shots each. haha. was alright lahx. raw shots that is- okay lahx, but damn it dries the throat. so we hung around there for about 2hours and left only at around 5am. ahahah.

walked down the pavement when we finally decided to climb up to the top of fort canning park which we eventually did and went down to the plaza singapura side. took us around 45mins ba and then we took a train where some of us went home and the rest just sat at the gates deciding wat to do. well i'm supposed to be sleeping cause they're supposed to meet at 2pm online to discuss of a possible mahjong session at cam's place. haha. hmmm. so i think i should try to get a shut-eye soon.

to my dear S43: i'll upload the photos soon ya? not as yet... not as yet...

in conclusion,
consider the fault to be mine
i've given up
and i will move on.

you still have not known
and you will never know
the things concealed from you
the past i give up

make your move competitor
i don't give a bull anymore
she ain't no commodity
and all i ask of you is...

to take care of her well.

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

the boy prepares to rumble.

PHOTO WHORE COMING THROUGH.

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

wondering when i'll see you again.

hey there guys of 4B- i really do wonder when will it be the last time i see you guys again; each and every one of you guys.

STAY IN TOUCH FELLAS!!!

Saturday, December 02, 2006

don't think you're irreplaceable.

that space remains empty-

Thursday, November 30, 2006

and so i'm back.

refreshed and alive in Him.

Monday, November 27, 2006

sms me.

dun call unless you're feelin bloddy rich.

Saturday, November 25, 2006

I'M BACK!

japan was beau.

Saturday, November 18, 2006

the word 'damn' is way overused

unable to wait for you outside your school
on the day you finish your papers.

post A's

YIPPEEE! ITS FINALLY OVER! TEAR YOUR ENTRY PROOFS! BURN YOUR NOTES! THROW AWAY YOUR I/C.

errr. haha. you get my point. since i just ended ALL my papers today, i shall be nice and stop my one sentence entries which requires like inferential skills to understand. so here goes. the a's was alright lahx i suppose. not like i could have done anything more about it- in the sense that i have done what i could for the papers especially for math and chem. so yea, the rest as what reyneth mentioned- give it to the markers; and to God as well.

but frankly, i must say that the Lord has truly sustained me throughout the examination period, both prelims and the a's. if not for his sustinance, i would probably be wallowing in my own self-pity after every paper. gah. not a very nice feeling, but yea. i suppose everyday i come home and gotta just get my ass down to work and revise and prepare for the next day's paper, i always have something to look forward to- in a sense that i know His grace will be made sufficient for me again. so here goes, TO GOD BE THE GLORY!

on to more serious stuff. haha. at this point, if you have not achieved a F9 and above for your social studies at O levels, please move on to next paragraph- infer. (hey, there has to got be some mental work done right? especially all your post a-level girls... discarding the grey matter for the next 8months. hahha.) alrights then.

"we havent been talking these few weeks cause of the exams. and even when i got the chance to talk to ya, it was only for a brief moment. you had to go prepare for your next paper. i had to as well, but i suppose that even though i set within myself that we can never be together, i never expected us to drift apart. i wanted the friendship more. and i hope you grant my request. i wish you well. study hard girl."

that's that. haha. understood? FARE! hah . its one in the morning. sianded. supposed to sleep now after taking the medicine, but heck. gah. lolx. guess i should sleep soon huh. haha. madness lahx. rar. still have to pack for japan. oooh- the idea of flying and leaving on a jet plane. wheeeeee~

i still believe in that dream.
and dream will do.

Monday, November 13, 2006

radian:
A unit of angular measure equal to the angle subtended at the center of a circle by an arc equal in length to the radius of the circle, approximately 57°1744.6.

that is if you are still wondering.

Friday, November 10, 2006

i made the right decision after all.
you will never get to know.

you've got a friend.

Monday, November 06, 2006

abandoned in your presence
lost in your embrace-

absolute trust. absolute obedience.

Sunday, November 05, 2006

then i'll see beyond my calvary
i will be complete in you.

i have made the decision- sorry.

Saturday, November 04, 2006

i lied to be with you
for probably the last time

we walked for some distance
and then we parted

its an odd feeling
but i know we wont last

"last time ; parted"
sorry.

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

sickening juniors.

fatigued; irritated.

Sunday, October 29, 2006

i'm victorious.

period. shuddup devil.

Saturday, October 28, 2006

we havent been talking lately

beautiful. that's what you are.
daniel and kim

me and__ .

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

finally got it up ad running.

no, i havent been exercising.

Saturday, October 14, 2006

Graduation Day- Farewell Assembly

i guess today was a rather emotional one for me since it was graduation day, and i suppose by the time i already start typing this message its already the next day. but ohwells nevermind. i guess typing it here helps save some memories.

day started off rather alrights, and i mean i got to school on time had my usual breakfast and waiting for everybody all at the same table since last year. it has been amazing how we always kope that table, until people instinctively knows that that table is pariah and totally should-not-be-touched-if-not-they-will-die sorta thing? ha. but yea. that was how it was.

had breakfast with shuwei, daniel and chuah and had a rather hearty meal i felt. and oh, i must say that it is at this time did i then realise how pro our dear peien is in math. all that trinomial expansion and algepanty (algebra?) probably helped her achieve a whopping 99% for math prelim paper two. like wth. but all in all the talks and all the bullshitting about stuff reminds me now of the bitching sessions that we use to have last year, ah- i miss that. damn. but after that, we put back our stuff and duh i went back to rejoin my class.

the tie i then put on was the actual same tie that i had since sec one. ironically this time round, it'll be the last time i'll wear it during my victorian schooling days. but i must say for all the days that i need to and have to wear the tie, i have only forgotten to wear it once. such is the love for the tie. haha. wth.

went to the hall for assembly where the year twos sat right in front of the stage and the juniors including ip people sat at the back. somehow or rather, thinking bout it now makes me feel more important during that time. hmmm. nevermind- back to the story. sang the national anthem and the pledge with my morning voice (normally i don't, cause it sounds horrid) because it will be the last time i will ever say it in school. wondering why the universities don't adopt such an approach as well. they've got their reasons, but whatever it is the pledge taking and anthem singing then was going to be my last.

sat down, britney gave the announcements of which hardly anyone listened out for till she gave taht death-look. ohmy. one look, and BOM! you're fallen. anyway, she's probably the best announcer i have ever seen or heard in my experience of hearing 3 batches of councillors trying to make the announcements audible to the school. ha.

dragon. that was the theme for our farewell assembly slideshow. mrs chan like last year gave a farewell speech that brought us back to where we first started off. from the registration booth to the academic results; from syf to sports finals. it was fantastic i felt, just to recollect good ol' memories with the principal. was good. there were some photos though, used in the slideshow that i felt some girls would probably want to see; more particularly the first slide. ha. david's so dead with all the thronging of girls. haha.

white ranger and batman came out next and without saying, were going to be the emcees for the ceremony. that's what i really like bout vj- the camaderie and the enthusiasm and the human spirit in each of us is so forthcoming, and through out lovely emcees, they made it heartwarming and funny and memorable. have one thing though, felt the approach wasn't really meant for a farewell assembly. but i suppose they took into account that if they were to do anything else, you would hear wailings and cryings all over the hall. not very good for the male ears-ow.

some percussionists came out next and played us a piece which made me see how lousy our hall stage is when it comes to projection of sounds is concerned. the timpani was totally contained in the atage area, hardly slamming into your face but hey. was good. enjoyed it very much. thanks juniors. that's another thing i like bout vj- that no matter what our talents are or what cca/faction we are in, we always see the bigger picture and work together for the common goal. cliche, but ah its the best form of expression i can think of now.

emcees come in. emcees go out. house comm's turn- fantastic skit i felt. funny, controversial and very much thought provoking. ah- i feel less guilty for not doing any work now, knowing that i used my brain back then. ha. fantastic lahx. nicely done. mugging competitions and soccer finals this year. merlionjc,richestjc,actcooljc,... haha. no offence meant here.

THANKS! ;totally. then it was the teachers turn to give us a speech. had the male ballerina dancers-teachers who went up against the retro pair. both lost lahx, to this group of belly dancing teachers of which ms rajan was one of them. and that's where we realised ms rajan and ms tham can dance relatively well. goodgood. haha. hmmm. but before that you had some guy asking some fairy (mr chow) to bless him with good dancing skills, which the fairy eventually did. "traditional chinese medicine takes time"- fairy. wth. mr wong machiam like small boy sia. wth. whole day tuck out shirt, dye hair this time round and carry pail and buckets when everybody wear electric guitars. haha. slack seh. but that's our mr wong. haha. skit ended off with the kung fu hustle music in the background dance of which as you would probably have guessed, mr chow was entirely out of phase. haha. funny.

then after that, emcees came out, and then there was yet another presentation but this time with words from the CT. haha. with I'll Be There For You as the music background, we were encouraged to stand up and sway from side to side. haha. THE TREES! my class was desperately waiting for our message, but realise ther wasn't in the first place. wth. haha. nvm lahx.

then it was mr seet who took over the mic and announced the championhouse. phoenix btw is last. aquila won this year. but you noe wat they always say, the last shall be the first, and the first shall be the last. haha. jiayou phoenix! ha.

then yawen took over (yes, yawen). it was the unveiling of the photo mosiac which i must say is very very well done. mrs chan was invited up to say a few words, but stopped short of a massacre of her tearbags. ha. on the verge of crying already, she passed on the mic to mr seet who started explaining to us that mrs chan was going to leave soon. which made me realise that it probably could be such a coincidence that when we were S4 in Vs, mr ang left the school with us as well; and this time round, seems like mrs chan's gonna do the same with us. leave. After a rather impromptu skit showing the accomplishments of mrs chan during her 5 year reign as supreme head, mr seet invited her back up on stage for her to say a few MORE words. she was probably on the verge of crying already so she stopped short. hmmm. the school gave her a rousing stading ovation for her efforts in keeping the flag unfurled.

i may not have known mrs chan for long, but i suppose i can say this. that of all my years studying iin an instituition, never have i come across a principal who sits with her staff and dines with students. she's seen at the very least, so you would roughly know of her presence. so in a way, i felt sad that she was leaving. but as what mr seet said- we do not say goodbye but thanky you. i think that was the message to us year twos as well, but nevermind, it was mrs chan's farewell assembly as well.

we ended off with the school anthem, singing robustly (i think this is a retarded word to use) the anthem, i thought of the symbolism of the flag. and then my eyes focused on these three words NIL SINE LABORE- thank you vjc for all that you have given me. it is true that we were once vsboys but now are vjmen. you have transformed and groomed us into the people we are today; people who will do a greater work in the society and in the world. it has been a short but definitely memorable two years with S43 (*rawks!!- sounds like it comes from a i-love-op-teenager) and choir (*woohoo!!).

headed back for CT session where ms rajan gave us out cca records, three achievements and result slip. then there was the cake cutting session which was fantastic. but before we did that, we had to say something first, and i guess that's where the mood settled in and i could see tears streaming down the cheeks of the faces of some of the girls. i was holding back quite a bit (can somehow control quite well?) and thank goodness i didn't look at yiling when she was tearing, if not i would be wailing already. finefine, that's an exaggeration- but you noe what i mean.

above all, this is what i would like to say.
for ALL that you've done. thank you vjc.
nothing else i say would be able to
encompass everything you've taught me.

to S43:
thanks for all the times we spent together. it may have been a really two short years together and thinking back of the time we first saw one another in T15, we sure have come a long way. from dunno-how-many-cliques to a single united class has truly been a journey that we have taken and have truly succeeded in. all of you guys have been truly impactful in my life, in nonsensical terms and reality and for that thank you. all the narnia and joshuae and lumpy and whatever else, thank you for making my vjc life not as mundane as it was crafted out to be. i may not have been the smartest person in class; i may not be the most vocal in class; i may not have the best character and personality in class, but i really hope i have been a friend to you in ths class. for all the many memoirs that are still to come, let this farewell be just the beginning of a lifelong friendship; that in good or in bad times we can know we can always look to one another for help and advice. as yiling said- the human spirit is so deeply reflected in the lives and faces of ours, so let us bring both the nonsensical and sensical knowledge into the world and impact another life or two. let's meet up every year on a particular day shall we? hmmm. zuoyi shall organise.

"we do not return to you mother,
for we have never really left."

Friday, October 13, 2006

Our final bow, batchmates.

for all that you've done, thank you vjc.

Monday, October 09, 2006

holding on still.

deep and cute don't go together.

Saturday, October 07, 2006

hey you, down south!

stop burning will ya?

Friday, October 06, 2006

seriously tried to run again.completed half of intended distance in half the estimated time.failed terribly;good try;well done?you decide.

but i choose. pikachu.

Thursday, September 28, 2006

e e e

i feel for you too.

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

back to school;

and how we used to be.

Monday, September 25, 2006

4B; it was great seeing you guys again

but i wonder when will it be the next?

Sunday, September 24, 2006

it was simply my privilege

blessed be the name of the Lord.

Saturday, September 23, 2006

its gonna be a brighter day.

i'm sure of that Lord.

Thursday, September 21, 2006

its over. it began.

figured i'd rather type a long entry for this time round, considering that i've got loads of time on my hands now that the exams are over. well, for now that is. so if you're some academics-freak who thinks that the normal student's life is all bout studies, well have your piece of cake.

the prelims was fine i guess. much of the papers were rather doable. but hey, there's always the thing about time isn't there? so it's rather crazy to turn over the cover page, and to your shock (for me, most of the time its relief; can't really remember now.) you start working your asses off during the three-hourpapers. rather crazy if you ask me, cause through the entire time, your pen just can't stop writing, or rather your hand has to be on the move all the time. so it didn't come to me as a surprise when people can complain of arm hand and finger cramps. ha. of course, this doesn't apply across all cramps. periodic cramps. ah. i'm a guy, what do i know of that?

alrights, that aside. this i must say: through this exam period, if there's one thing i have truly learnt is the fact that when we run to the Giver of all good things, everything good just comes naturally. rather. it's been amazing at the pace at which i've grown spirtiually through this period. but hey, the real test comes after the papers- whether or not you continue to keep the trust all the way, or do we just run to God when crisis comes our way. praying that i pass this one.

then again, there's been some crazy things happening through the prelim period. i mean, there are just some stuff that i really cannot talk about, lest i blow my cover. but thinking back of what i said to daniel yesterday `DAMN I'M GOOD. admit it. I AM. but hey. if you can read into whatever i said, well done. but then again, you don't even know what i said. ha. just been some crazy stuff going on, and its not really taking a toll on me, cause i'm not really gonna bother about the coup.

speaking of the coup, i really hope thailand gets over this really soon. ain't a preacher and i'm not really following the situation there, but to me if i see tanks surrounding my parliament house, i won't really be at ease- with myself at least. but hey, who am i to say anything, just hoping everything would turn out for the better at the end of the day. cause i really wanna go thailand and spend a holiday or two, and if this thing don't ease up, damn.

well then, long day ahead of me. cause i've got yet another wedding rehearsal tonight, but for now can't find anything substantial to do. have got nearly four-five hours to kill before the planned agenda. we shall see as time flies.

the prelims may have ended.
but it has only just begun.

Friday, September 08, 2006

there's a wedding tomorrow.

but it's not mine. YET.

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

if we had our ways, this wouldn't last

that's why i'm enjoying every single moment now.

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

perks galore for teachers

learning to factor You in day by day.

Sunday, September 03, 2006

there are 800million people starving
but there are 300million obese people.

we're progressing.

Friday, September 01, 2006

Ksp>IP for the day- break time.

for now, ignorance would be simply bliss.

Thursday, August 31, 2006

fatigued and mixed up emo.

a BIG sorry to my fourb classmates today if i made you guys worried over my dreaminess and seh-ness. it was uber fantastic just to spend a day out with you guys again; all the laughing and joking around is something that never fails to bring me back to the good ol' days.

on a second note> happy teachers day.

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

somehow or rather, i think you two look good together

but i'm not giving up. never.

Monday, August 28, 2006

all art requires courage

maybe my name is "all art"

Thursday, August 24, 2006

time to consolidate.

i would runaway with you.

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

focus. and concentrate.

for the end draweths nigh.

Monday, August 21, 2006

just smile.

cause you're beautiful to me.

Saturday, August 19, 2006

didn't get it.

but at least i've still got you.

Thursday, August 17, 2006

maybe we could be colleagues in the future

i'm pretty sure we will be.

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

you are my lil pillow on which i rest upon

soft and sweet. that's what you are.

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

"chiong" wouldn't be enough to describe what we're all doing now.

but for you, it would be.

Monday, August 14, 2006

rar. school started.

school started. that's all you need to know.

on a lighter side, happy eighteenth kennick.

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

wondering again on national day

dear Mr Lee,
i was just wondering...
what went through your mind
when you saw videos of yourself
making motivational speeches;
when you heard the monologus
of the young and old;
and finally looking at the spectators
spanning the surroundings of the stadium?
i was just wondering.


happy national day!

somehow as i stood there by the poolside watching the red and seemingly white stars glaze through the sky, i could feel my spirits being lifted: you know like a little boy whose face lights up at the sight of a new set of cars (i personally loved the construction heavy machines; has always been fascinated by them), yeah that was what i felt. i guess it must have shown on my face as i felt my facial muscles tightening up into a small lil' smile. something which i probably haven't felt or done so naturally for such a long time (i think). somehow or rather, there was this unspeakable joy within me as if i have been liberated whenever a star shot out through the night sky. it was just as if my troubles were like the stars, all shot out from the saturated centre- ahhh... the liberation.

freedom.

and as i continued to look with amazement at the beautiful embellishments of the starless sky, i was fixed. rooted, if that brought on any additional meaning, to this place i called home for the past eighteen years and counting. the want of going overseas seemed ironically relevant somehow in my untangled mind but the corresponding plans on how to celebrate MY homeland's birthday there in that foreign land somehow seemed unthinkable. oh, the vastness between sides. if only i could have my cake and eat it somehow.

bound.
` but till then, happy national day
my beloved nation<

Saturday, August 05, 2006

cousins.design.banner.openhouse.
interesting.

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

fouras
aoneforgp
that's my aim.
sph,
caas,
moets,
moeta.
that would make my day

Sunday, July 30, 2006

the power of music- vjchoir; love

(sound) thunderous applaud filled the hall
-as the orchestra stood to receive the compliments
time stood still for things to fall into place.
gravity took the situation by hand and led it in;
down
down
down
it sank, set within the darkness of the night.
and as the stage lights dimmed upon the platform,
the chances of music-making dimminshed slowly.
trudging along the dark corridors of the backstage
the silence ebbed into my spirit; my soul.
dragging the load along as i walked,
sounds of laughter filled the air
euphoria.
ah- that's what that is.
boy,
am i so gonna miss that.
thoughts vanished when we met back in that secret place
the place called heaven- cool, refreshing, final.
we stood in formation as the clouds rose among us,
chords rang in unison as memories pelted my mind.
it flooded me. drowned my senses. filled my entire being.
3:three, that was the magic number for that night.
the anthem rang as tsunami memories rained down.
the emo-wall shielded my eyes from pouring;
i just had to be strong.
the atmosphere of hugs of love and whispers of good wishes
made it impossible for the floodgates to remain shut
- it burst forth.
YEAR TWOS TAKE PHOTO!
click.
ONE MORE TIME!
click.
and that ended our term.

Friday, July 28, 2006

your words

-thanks for the flame

since you want us gone,
so be it

Sunday, July 23, 2006

130th anniversary

to mother school, VS:
HAPPY 13Oth ANNIVERSARY!

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

fantasy duet- bridge

-i wanna go home.
-would you accompany me?
seperated.connection.

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

cmb- rawr

just went for my ns checkup today, and hmmm... its not that bad lahx. actually, it was alright. there wasn't like anything funny that happened and neither was there any HUGE hiccups that made me sleep on the way. well, its partially because i was like the first at all stations, so errr, like naturally would be one of the first to leave for the day? haha. it was alright lahx. hmmm. just that when you get there, totally like some blindman like that. dunno where to go and what to do also. sianded. ahhaa. okayy, so you want a full account here it is:

went to cmb (central manpower base) at 7.45am. madness right? well, that's cause i woke up at 6am and propabably left house at 6.30am. went breakfasting and thanks to the pain in my back teeth due to my braces, i left pasir ris in a taxi at round 7.10am. and oh ya! if you're coming from pasir ris, don't bother taking a cab to cmb. cause the entire journey time is around 30mins and mind you that does not include waiting time. rawr. so i was one of the seemingly cuckoos there when i reached. ahha. i also made the driver go in and well malu himself. haha. cause cannot go in wat, so the dunno how many soldiers on duty came and told him to make a U-turn and come out. rawr. totaly cab fare was exhorbitantly high at $21. my gosh. here's where my diet comes in REAL handy. haha.

so waited at the errr... waiting area? for about 10mins, then went to register. got myself a pink form, (realised how polite i actaully was- all the other guys ahead of me didn't even say thank you when they got themselveves the pink slip.. haha) and no, a pink slip doesn't mean you're pregnant or have some wierd disease, its just a normal form. haha. so useless that last sentence. anyway, went to take a photo for some ns card, and mind you. of all the people in the room, i wore the smallest size. well at least that was what the man said. he took the uniform off the rack explained to use the know-hows when you take a photo (like HUH?) then said "this boy can wear size 3 which is the smallest size..." after which, handed me the thing, then said "you ready? come sit there" thanks. take photo, then okay liaox lohx. the photo of me was actually quite good lohx. so... yay. haha.

then went in to register AGAIN. this time for dunno wat. ahha. i was actually attended by this dunno-what-he-was-doing army guy, until another woman came by. recall recall recall: friends told me she was some bitch, but to me, she didn't really piss me off. if not i'd probably head0butt her. haha. then again, she got cushioning in front, so maybe not that impactful. ahaha. mad. anyway, taht man really dunno what he was doing lohx. go there, read instructions then errr.. "excuse me wat am i supposed to do?" ya. i asked that lohx. then he also sor-sor wan dunno asked me to take out all documents. then that's where the woman came. then instruct him to do things. after a while, it got pretty amusing to see a full-time national serviceman donning the dark greeen uniform to be literally pushed around by some woman donning, well commoner clothes as they like to call it. (for some reason, why can't they call it home clothes? must be special lahx) *roll eyes* then i was ushered, literally to sit down. haha. and wait. didn't wait long, then they called my name. went straight to the ent station.

damn funny. first thing they do there: on the chair, you'd find instructions; read it and then wait. being the first to reach, didn't even wait for 5mins then ask me to go in. haha. put on the headphones and wait for sound. damn scared cannot hear sia. ahah. then instead of say a piano's monotone play, the sound was some alien-atic music. haha. no meaning. can hear, thne put up the hand on the same side as where you hear the sound in the ear. haha. damn funny. they play the music then look at you, then you raise your hands. haha. the people outside (thank God, not much) look at you and think you're spastic or something. ahha. that was done, then went eye station.

i think i failed this station. even with lenses on, cannot read the third last line of the set of letters. ahha. so enough said, cannot be in medics already. later anyhow poke poke here and there. patient come to me alive, go out pronounced dead. haha. dun wannnn... ahha.

went for x-ray next. no gay guy there wat. ahha. it was just some guy who spoke quite wierdly. hmm, come to think of it he was damn gentle with me when he held my arms and asked me to stand close to the machine. hmmm... maybe he is. haha. still ask me to relax. and then i stood there like cuckoo again. dunno when it ended. casue there was no loud thumoing sound when the photograph (well, technically it is right?) was taken. okay lohx. then go straight for blood test. thanks.

the blood test station was combined with the urine test so when i got there, i was yet again first. haha. the guy before me at the x-ray station was sent for dental first i guess, but nevertheless i was first at the urine test. haha. went there then they just said take one bottle and one stick go to toilet and read the instructions there. it was funny i guess, cause i was the first there, then when i went into the toilet, somehow couldn't find the instructions. eventually i did, without anybody's help if not it'd be damn malu lahx. haha. so did it, threw the urine away then went out, showed the stick to the officer who was dunno why scared of the stick, then threw it away. that dustbin must be awfully disgusting. ahha. after which, stayed there for a while cause i havent taken my file back wat. haha. and so, after waiting for bout 5mins, i realised that i was also at the blood test station. and mind you they dunno why have to poke me twice with needles. haha. first time was a small one at hte tip of my middle finger. haha. first time i see myself bleed so much. haha. cause they squeezed your finger when the blood oozed out? haha. then as they squeezed, they used some capillary tube to contain the blood. make my finger look so bloody lohx. i went back to my seat with a bloodied finger, probably scaring the shit out of the people who were waiting for their turn. once again, waited pressing the cotton bud while i wait (the blodd sill didn't stop), until my name was called out from the room. thanks. my moment now. went in, amazingly not fearing anything. saw the needle and still no fear. then when they poked it in, of course i looked away lahx. then after that no pain. then i even had the courage to look back at the syringe left in my hand, then saw that the officer placed another piece of swab over the point of insertion (i still remembered i wondered what in the world he did that for), then mercilessly pulled the entire syringe out while holding onto the piston. inventive way of drawing blood i must say. quick and painful. haha. lucky never scream. haha. if not will be damn malu. ahha. anyway, that was done.

went to second last station which was the dental station. waited again. then tunderwent the station. nothing much. all healthy gums and teeth. the normal. nothing lahx.
went to last station. take heartbeat and pressure and height and weight. nothing much. just that it got pretty irritating cause all the medical officers there were undergoing training. so the professionals had to explain like mad until i think even i can work the machine lohx. haha. damn funny. nothing much. and oh, the coughing station is also here. haha. damn funny.

last station: the mental tests. ahha. i think i failed the maths section. haha. never finish. ahha. dunno why cannot calculate. ask me percentage error lehx. crapizoid. hahaha. but proud to say i think i passed the physics section damn well. and oh, the rotation section also damn infuriating. halfway, i forgot the instructions. so was pretty much fumbling with the thing. but finished it nevertheless. actually the tests were not tiring lahx. just damn sianded. really. finished it and left. did a short questionaire, and well left not just medical centre...

... but cmb for good. well at least for the day.

haha.

Monday, July 03, 2006

celebrating day of youths with S43

sink your feet into the sands
and feel yourself falling;
let mother save you
from your dire state.

gaze into the horizon
and see the limitless;
let mother soothe you
from your aches.

zoom past the trees
and feel the wind blow;
let mother satisfy you
with her love.

cycling at the park with S43 was just simply great. the time spent together and the fun we had- oooh, just so memorable. cycling past sea sports club, sailing centre, all the way to the end of the road; then turning back and finally eating at the lagoon, feasting on the seafood_ sinful lil' creatures. and so i've decided on a low fat/ low carb/ low calorie diet. training for napfa and also for healthiness, training for army starts now. and i'm starting it real hard.

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

.take courage and keep the faith

Friday, June 23, 2006

]finally eighteen / and on this special day. . .

oh my, wat a day today
spending it with 4b as time swept away
a dinner spent and a pool game played
with this brotherhood, what more can i say?

this day spent with you guys have truly been
a special time of love and reminiscing
all the moments shared yesterday and today
will be kept deep in my heart, always.

and a BIG shout out to all those out there
who have sent me wishes from everywhere
it has descended upon my phone
and i sincerely thank you for your love untold.

so let these words be like a heartfelt letter
because my love for you guys out there burns forever
so as i end it off with my name to the left aligned
just beneath it, with my heart i sincerely sign.

-woohfd

a special thanks to nicholas ting, daniel thong, sue lynn, yawen, shuwei (at exactly 12am!), liangi, stephanie, reyneth (who has been secretly spying on my sex life), joseph, chin chong, zihua, chiew shan, huping, my lovely second aunt on my dad's side, daniel lee (who jsut came back after rowing some sampan), bryan (who has been encouraging me to get some booze- and for the unknowing, it means alcohol), zhou chu, janice, alicia, bernice, yizha, mark (who forgot bout it last night when i was out with him studying), mum, aunt jessie huin, grandma, jian hao, zara, beatrice, amanda, aunt pauline from my mum's side, ching kai (i suspect yawen reminded him, but hey i trust he remembered, although.. ), sean lim, charlene, lynn, annabella, zuo yi, gerald mursjid, dad (both sent me mms; is that supposed to be more specially known? hmmm) and all those who have wished me in one way or another.
also a big shout out and really heartfelt thanks to bryan (for suppering with me), reyneth (for his madness and retarditcity), shen yean (ahhhh. POTATO!), sean lim (what more can i say?), yapchow (for the siao stuff displayed on the pool table) and liangi (for planning the entire dinner and gathering). thanks guys for spending this special night with me. it was heartwarming to see you guys all coming back for me. haha. i'm becoming bhb already. but can't help it- good looking wat?

haha.

Thursday, June 22, 2006

` a prayer of thanks for seventeenth

Deep within the wells of my soul
let this prayer reach up to your throne;
These words are full of thanks
for truly O Lord, i am completely blessed.

This past one year of living seventeenth
have made me learn special things;
Things that make me grow in truth
but more importantly, more in you.

You have seen past all my faults
my sins, my pain and my distraughts.
Pulling me through in the end
O my God, how now i understand.

For Your unfailing love has seen me through
and showered me with blessings,oh so true;
What more can i say that will explain how i feel
for this love i receive is just so surreal.

So here it goes, in the best i know how
thank you God for sustaining me till now;
May my years be blessed and better ahead
as i serve you and bless you, all of my days.

TO GOD BE THE GLORY
FOREVER AND EVER
AMEN

Saturday, June 17, 2006

so this wat physics spa skill a teaches us.

let x be the height from the ground
to the base of the bag carried on back of subject

let y be the age of the subject.

assuming the relation of lg y= lg x + a
where a is a constant

(insert table and graph here)

since the graph of lg x plotted against lg y is a straight line
the assumed relation is proven true.

*based on observational evidence at a concert..

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

life thus far

life began when you were formed
deep down in dear mum's womb
you never knew what how life was
under out you came out really soon.

and so it all began, when you
entered playschool or kindergarden
as some people affectinately call it,
you soon realised the true meaning of
-yes, freedom.

you then moved on to primary school
where you thought failing spelling was fine and
subsequently took your final exams six years later;
but you never knew that you would take
a similar major exam -an ordinary one,
only that this time round, its difficulter.

the time when your entire world runs wild,
with fantasies and imaginations all undesired,
it finally came with much hype and hip!
- things started spilling underneath the sheets
and hair was growing in all the wrong places,
life seriously couldn't get worse than that...
but then again, can it?

and so after that HUGE revelation which probably killed you,
you rose like a phoenix, all glorious and marvellous
and beat all odds to get your tail feathers into college.
my oh my. this time round, things get rather DIRTY and MESSY.
secrets of victoria starts spreading through the school
with mixed reactions from those who have caught the wave.
PLUS all the coping with college work and relationships
you're gonna get stressed. inevitably.

while the future may seem uncertain for some people
one thing's definitely for sure regardless of all.
to get this far in life you must have been a conqueror
and for heaven's sake, get your spelling wright
dear.

life as an eighteen year old sure is tough
ain't it?

Saturday, June 10, 2006

snowy's day operation.

it pains me deep inside
to see you in this state.
the sunken eyes which
only tell me pain is more
than my heart can bear.
i rubbed your head and
carressed your bosom
and i know that was
probably all you asked for;
i want to give you more
but you need rest;
just lie there my dear
and stay still there.

i will come to you.
because i really care.

Thursday, June 08, 2006

magical numbers //+

4 times i've bathed today
3 hours spent playing badminton
2 hour sleep after badminton
2 proper meals through the day
2 hours of studying at night
1 h2o that kept me alive thru the game
the numbers seem rather magical
don't they?

study and play until
siao liao.

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

momentum...

using p = mv - e
where m is small
and v is small
because distance is very big
and time taken to cover distance is VERY big
and e to be external influences which is reaching infinity.

therefore momentum, p is small
and hence darren cannot do any work.

i need to get my momentum back.
seriously.

Friday, June 02, 2006

listen to this:

beauty fruit juices for your face
the "Atomic Face Lift" being sold at $4.50

i had the wildest imagination of the entire face being lifted off the err.. face at speed of light or something. well, something like an ATOMIC bomb blast or something.

like that would revitalise your face.

didn't feel very accomplished today.
tommorrow will be a better day.

Thursday, June 01, 2006

i really must be going bonkers

and so i stood on the mezzanine, looking down on the first floor and what caught my eye was a man holding a kid of not more than ten years old in one hand and the other pulling a PRAM. he walked at least 20 metres away from the library where he came from and suddenly stopped in his tracks. the boy looked up in wonder and with some thought, or at least i thought he did, the man walked back towards the library.

conclusion: the man forgot the baby.
studying underway.
do not disturb.

Wednesday, May 31, 2006

english of science

fellow science faculty members out there, hear me out and distinguish for yourself whether this is true. it dawned upon me while i was studying for physics about the english of science. haha. i must be mad.

this is my theory.

biologists use simple english words especially non-specific chemical terms. maybe they're being slack in the orientation of the chemical molecules but if you had even realised, they normally don't state the full chemical name for the reagents they use thus not allowing you to know the full structure of the molecule. well then again, i don't take biology, so i'll leave it as it is. *i realised this during biochemistry lecture- and its something the chemistry lecturer mentioned*

chemists on the other hand, use really simple childish terms such as "electrophilic ATTACK" or "COLD BATHS to QUENCH the reactions". i came to conclusion (just) that maybe the concepts of chemistry may not be as apparent to the human eye as compared to say mathematics or physics where experiments can be carried and results can prove your point. to prove your point in chemistry, you probably would have to draw imaginative figures to help you visualise, not even to prove. so that's that. once again, this was something not devised by me but rather by my physics tutor who somehow questioned us whether the word "attack" was appropriate in chemistry when we asked him questions pertaining to how the neutrons BOMBARD some radioactive elements in nuclear physics class.

physicists on the other hand use really really long BOMBARSTIC terms such as "SUPERPOSITION" and sometimes even twist the proper english definitions for some of the terms such as "MOMENTS". maybe it's because physics, of the three mentioned here, have experiments that can prove your point easily. for example, just let two pendulum oscillate and there you have it. you have proven the point of driving frequency. maybe its becauase of the simplicity of matters that allows the human mind and eye to see it for yourself that allows physicists to use a bit more bombarstic terms. hmmm.

hahah. all that's mentioned is what i've gathered from my years so far in college with no prior experience to university life and its various courses, i have no idea if they still apply then. haha.

i must be going bonkers from
mugging.