me, my black pepper beef noodles and my maths notes

hmmm. chem was argh to me. studied so darn hard for it, so now really really gotta trust God lahx for this paper. hahah. to think i can still laugh in this sort of situation. then again, its a joy to be able to do so. ahhaha. yaaaaaaaaay. hmmm. but something i must highlight is that while i was studying in the choir room prior to the exam, i had this feeling that lattice energy would appear. as in the definition and stuff. at first i thought it was some passing thought, then i thought, hey might as well right. in the end, woohoo! it came out in the paper. not bad seh?

To God Be the Glory! :)

mj finish tml sia. i mean rey and his class finish tml seh. *xian mu.* he also having maths tml. haix. maths. not very prepared lehs. they don't give me the formula list, i might as well leave the exam hall seh. haix. tons of formulae to memorise lahx. sianx diao. hahaha. 3h paper seh. scared i don't have the stamina to finish the paper seh. hahaha. yepps. seek jehovah jireh i will. yepps.

last round of chori auditions this friday. so yepps, i gotta be there. to all those who wanna join us, the vjchoir. please come to vjc at 12pm for choir auditions. its this friday, 1 july. it'll be fun. a whole new experience. yepps. hope to see you there!

econs/ gp midyears.

playing Moby's everloving now. great track. the best track for motivation and meditation. something i so need now, especially 2 long papers of writing a combined total of 5 essays. ha.

had econs paper in the morning. it was alright lahx. but one thing i MUST say is that: just before i left house to go to school, i had some extra time left, so i went to my room and took out the past years papers for mid years for econs and just sorta went through them. i only managed to read through the midyears 2000 paper answer scheme for the essay part. woohoo! guess wat? the paper today had a similar question. it was so amazing lahx. i really seriously believe it was God who sorta prompted me to get my ass to the room and go through that paper. heh. all in all, it was alright lahx. mcq was simple for the first few, after that- well you can say it was pretty challenging. hahaha. but got over it. did the 2 essays on elasticity and market structure thingy. oh- my mind on pc industry andk monopoly just went poof! like some kokokrunch seh. gone like that lahx. forgot the graphs and shit. i think that essay out of 25M, can get like 4? hahaha. see how lahx.

slept in the choir room after that. freaking tired lahx. hand was still shaking from all those frantic writing. hahaha.

ahd GP after that at 2pm. essay was alright lahx. just had a lot to write and talk about. damn, i love writing essays. hahaha. it was alright lahx. i felt the writing process to be pretty much smooth. heh. compre next. about some crimes seh. the style of writing- halfway through i had this aspiration to be able to write like taht. smooth, sleek, NICE! hahaha. but it was alright. the answering of the questions were alright lahx. didn't have much trouble with it. then again, compre to me is like argh. so see how lahx. hahaha

hmmm. maybe this is something i should post here. halfway through the gp compre exam, i suddenly thought about my mum and i. heck lahx. oh, when i was studying for chem just now at the library, i was thinking of her.

to that special one in my heart: i need to talk to you. but i sorta don't know how to tell you and stuff. you're leaving for venice soon. so yea, i guess you'll be pretty much busy this few days around. won't bother ya then- don't want this thing to affect ya too much yea? heh. miss ya lots! :)

some adventure about to be experienced.

heh. have been studying like mad for the past few nights at the airport. yesterday went to pick up lucas. hahaha. i think he sorta got a shock. hahaha. but it was fun lahx. running to him and stuff. oh. marie taught us the Singapore pledge in tamil. pretty cool. interesting thing is: she said it so darn fluently- her native tongue [how could i forget!]

finished chem last night too! woohoo! finished physics just now at the library. gonna finish econs tonight and start doing papers for chem and econs i think. so not prepared in anyway for the papers lahx. argh. especially econs and maths. oh. if you havent noticed, i sorta gave up on math, err at least on trigo. hahaha. the rest also not say very good anyway.

anyway, gonna study in vj tonight. tonning there for the night i presume. hahaha. so cool! havent slept in school for a long time since choir camp. hahaha. so fun! some adventure. heh. :)

oh. btw fyi, my mum and sis aren't gonna be home tonight.
surprised? don't be.
she's been gone for already 2 nights.

yepps. alright with it.
alright with her not telling me.
and she expects me to tell her
my whereabouts.
selfish-ism. if there was such an illegal group,
she can be the ring leader.
heh. my dad would second taht.

cheeros!

studying at the airport yet again.

gah. before i freeze in this sub-zero temperatures of the airport, lemme say write some stuff botu wat happened in the night. heh. it's really really quite serious and i hope all those who read this will learn from this. yepps.

actually, nothing significant happened.

heh.
today: guess i'm gonna celebrate with my friends again.
not surprising. :)

oh ya. i finished 5 chapters of math [wooohoo!]: Coordinate geometry, surds, indices, binomial, graphs and the transformations... so it seems to me that i just might be able to finish the syllabus that will be tested for the upcoming exams. yeah! damn. my hands are numb. heh.

gah. gastric in the middle of the nite at the airport.

painpain. kena gastric after drinking hot milo- why ah? argh. not need to clear my gastric first. damn painful seh. argh.

how to study seh. still at the airport. bah.

back at the airport.

hmmm. so i'm back at the airport studying my ass off this whole week i figured i'll be studying here this whole wek for basically 2 reasons: 1- intensive studying is so no longer an option, its mandatory. considering that the exams're just next week. arghs. 2- my relationship with my mum took for a worse turn. she started to scream at me yesterday because i didn't pick up her phone call during choir prac [my phone was at its silent mode] and also for not going back to my aunt's place for dinner. stupid reason to scream at me. well too bad. i'm not gng home this week lahx. or at least the times i go home will be the times she's not at home.

so that sorta means i'll be studying at the aiprort through the night everyday this week, so darn exciting!

heh.
damn. i miss you dsa guys! ahahah.
:)

success!

accomplished! started studying at about 11pm, and just ended studying at like 5.20am today. WOOHOO! that's a whopping 6hours of overnight studying. damn. i'm good. hahaha. finished the whole of maths ap, sigma and gp. still got a loooooooooong way more to completing maths, ahhaha. but still, i think it was not bad le considering this is the first time i'm studying overnight at the airport. woohoo!!

daniel's fast asleep on the sofa. gabriel and i are both frantically blogging to tell others about our feat! hahaha. W E M. but it's not bad lahx. now the thing that worries me is later's rehearsal. dunno how am i ever to survive. hahaha.

gah.

studying at the airport.

well its like 2 in the morning., ariport's close.
cool. studying now. ahhaha. still stuck withmaths. bah.
sianx diao.
that's why i'm online.

hahaha.
at least i'm out from home.

`moving out thots

some events that has happened to me has somehow made me think of a lot of things. stuff that i should have thought of a long time ago. stuff that i knew about, but had not a single ball to voice it out. maybe that's the prime reason why i get into trouble with my family and relatives all the time.

quarrelled with my mum, i think it was last week. now, i didn't want to sorta state it in my blog, but you know wat- isn't that the reason why i even have a blog. i mean a blog's for you to pen down all your thoughts and emotions right? no point hiding it anyway. haix. back to the topic. actually i didn't quarrel with her. she just left the house in a fury just like that, and mind you, it was after her trip to malaysia. so i sorta survived without her for like 5days? so her leaving sorta had little impact on me. well, everything's alright now. i mean she's back, but still... i dun talk to her. i mean i hardly talk to my parents anyway.

that's besides the point. point is, this morning, i came home at like 11am, after spending the night at dan's place. no bus back home to pasir ris, so had to make do at his place. well dan, if ya reading this: thanx! anyway, came home, washed the clothes, cleaned up after the dog, blasted the music on the house speakers and suddenly had this thought that if i stayed by myself, i would probably and most likely survive. that's wat made me think throughout this day.

i don't know, but this house sorta has lost its significance? i mean i feel at home, when no one's at home. i can do whatever i want [of course with the limitations lahx], like blast the music, watch tv yadayadayada. yepps. this house to me, its like just a place for me to sleep? i come home late at night, leaving home early in the morn, i don't study at home, i don't do a lot of things at home. bah. i really don't know.

so i feel my reason is justified. well personally justified. how can i convince my parents then. i mean if i wanna move to like tampines, and i tell them, they'll tell me might as well stay at pasir ris right? so i must find a good spot first, then can at least tell my parents taht by staying at that place, it'll be nearer to school and all that stuff. yepps. then i was thinking of asking my aunts when are they moving out of the marine parade home. if they do, i'll probably ask them not to sell the house, then let me stay there. yea. i mean, with a bit of furnishing, i think it'll be quite a swell place to stay in. heh.

arghx. i don't know.
no one's home now anyway.

out with dan

and so it was. went out with daniel today. he had to get his black shirt, i had to get the red ties. hahaha

while he may have found the black shirt at u2, i couldn't find the red ties. well, this is not a very nice sign, cause that means the whole choir would prob have to change all the ties to some other colour. something which i think a lot of people will dread.

went to the movies after taht, watched mr and mrs smith. great show i felt. hahaha. haven't watched something action-packed in ages. heh. so at least caught one finally. hahaha.

went walkinkg at wisma to search for dan's other black shirt. hahaha. went to armani, nth. G2000- nvr sell. calvin klein- 159dollars. wth. another T-SHIRT also costs 159. madness.

well then tt somehow sums up my day.
heh.

kayak adventure. heh :)

heh. finally i know the feeling of being dizzy, of course, i'd be after a 2h kayak adventure followed by a 2 and a half hour lunch cum dinner at seoul garden. hahaha. the day started off like this:

supposed to meet daniel at tampines mrt at 8.15am, but he came late at 8.30am. alright lahx. hahaha. not as bad as me. went down to kallang mrt, where we had macs for breakfast. the macs next to the mrt. halfway through the meal, dajie call me, told us they were at the macs near the national stadium. hahaha. still never mind, can walk wat right? hahah. so finish meal le, then took bus down, then walk. haix.

reach there, all there le. so we went out supposed to kayak at kallang there, then dajie call dunno who, then realised that kayak spot's only for club members. very good. part of adventure. hahhaa. so we go down to east coast sea sports club. damn, go down there, they say they dun rent out kayaks. even better. the woman there told us the NSRCC club provided rental services. ask her how long to get there, she say 15-20min walk. i'm sure lahx. you won't really noe how long the distance was until we hitched a ride on the park cleaner/ gardener's lorry. somehow, it made me wonder why is it that people who drive big luxury cars, people who should all the more accept a hitch ride, dun do so?

so we finally reach there le. hahaha. FINALLY. daniel and i took a doubles, jeremy and justin took a doubles, jie and marcs took singles each. now this was the climax of the whole adventure. we got everything done, and off we went into the sea! woohoo! daniel and i paddle halfway, dun wanna paddle le. dman irritating, damn tiring also lahx. hahaha. we paddle here and there, always cannot paddle to where we wanna go to one. irritation. yea.

out into the sea, all 4boats came together, then decided to capsize boat. hahaha. jie went in first. dan placed his legs over the boat, then was still unsure. now when he did that, the boat was obviously a bit the unstable le. hahhaa. to make things worse, i shifted my body over the the right, where his legs were over the right. the whole kayak capsizd and OVERTURNED. ahaha. both of us were like WTH! hahah. had to turn the kayak back up again, then get up there. which we later did. [duh!] hahaha. but that was damn good.

we paddled from NSRCC to the seasports club. which was a great deal of a distance, paddling there was alright. but when we had to paddle back. damn it was looooooooooooooooooong. very loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong. hahaha. while paddling back, it started to rain. that was the best. hahaha. rain in the middle of the sea. very good. all of us damn scared it'll be a thunderstorm. if that happens, sea would get rougher, wind would get stronger. hahhaa. yea. damn. but it stopped. THANK GOD! hahah. but it was prett6y freaky. hahaha. both of us paddled like mad pigs, not looking at where we're heading, jsut paddling. hahaha. paddle non-stop lahx. madness. but we reached where we wanted to go, the end! hahaha.

oh. when we were paddling back, we found a floating rotten condom. damn wide, but short. hahaha. hmmm.. i wonder.

hahaha. after all that, went to seoul garden at tm. ate for like 2 and a half hours. nearly died. hahaha. halfway, dan and i couldn't take it, went to walk walk. actually we had to get new underwear. hahaha. not ours. but jie's. hahaha. his underwear was wet, then he threw away i think. so he wasn't wearing nething down there when we went to the mall. hahaha. amusing. hahhaa. hmmm. thye pbought a pack of 3. 1 for dan, 1 for jie, 1 for me. hahah. we called ourselves the hush! hahha. i'll leave you to guess why so. it'll be too disgusting for me to write it up here. [as if talking about a guy not wearing undies is not disgusting]

hahaha. went for sco practice after taht. so tired lahx. but it was a very very very good experience. hahaha. very fun! hahhaa. i reckon the average age of the sco is like 30-40+++ hahaha. i won't be surprised lahx. carnt imagine the next batch of juniors who will take over the reigns of the sco. hahaha. but they're really really very good. not some school co lahx. conductor talk, school co justtalk like they've not seen one another in ages. hahhaha. very fun.

now, here's the fun part. when we had comm meeting after the practice, that was already abotu 10? i felt dizzy, and just laid down. argh. hahaha. so fun!

"so i'll praise your name forever and a day
and i'll live for you into eternity
so i'll praise your name forever and a day
and i live what i sing, waht i say,

what i'm learning everyday."

- "Forever and a Day" by Hillsongs.

what shld i do today?

hello there. now for the blog update: new links. new tag-board [the last one was rubbish].

LOL. haix. have been sleeping for like 7h only lahx these few days of the hols. hmmm. is that enough. want to sleep more, but then cannot lahx. if sleep too much, instead of being energetic, you become some walking zombie lahx. bah! haix. dunno wat to do today also. want to swim, but no sun. feel like running, but need to study. study is a must for me le. no longer an option. its mandatory. compulsory, A MUST.

tml got physics makeup and then followed by gp. but marcus and the rest of the gang wanna go ecp to kayak. damn. i wanna go kayak too! argh. see how lahx. most likely i go after make-up. haha. kayak! woohoo... so maybe i dun do anyexercises today lahx. hahaha. then again, i think i'll run tonight. hahaha. hate running. especially when you run round the track a few thousand times (actually only 6 lahx :P ), need tons of determination lahx. bah!

see how....

siying: hey bon voyage! dun forget the gifts. hahaha. choir will miss ya ! hahaha.

studying in choir room

went to school this morning actually supposed to play squash with rayner, but then right, no rackets. aiyah, then my dear childhood friend told me got. ahhaha. reach the room, he told me can only find tennis rackets. hahaha. nvm lahx. newae, when we wanted to play, there were already people playing at the courts. ahhaha. so nvm lahx. another time lahx.

hmmm. jeremy gan and dan came over to vjc to hand up their dsa stuff. ahahha. didn't expect them to come down. totally cannot study lahx, when they came. ahhah. btu then again right, if you think about it, its not an everyday thing that you can meet them and really enjoy their presence as year 0. hahaha. reminds me of my years in vs, hahaha. for 3yrs as a senior. still am, and yes i'm proud of being a vs-victorian. yaaaaaaaay! hahaha.

i have learnt one thing
although unlike poles
attract one another
it will not last.

damn, i miss you badly.

back from solo swimming.

ha! finally went swimming on my own. hahaha. went to tampines at first, then realised it's closed down for renovation. bah! so went to the bedok one. hahaa. alright lahx. not very crowded, actually not a lot of people also. hahaha. so nearly had the pool to myself, but i must say that in the noon, there are relatively more adults and army-personnel-age-group-people there. yea. so they all bug the adult pools. hahaha. but it was alright lahx. haven't been swimming for a long time le. hahaha. so i did 4 laps for warmups, then rested then went to do about 16laps with about 15-30sec in between each. hahhaa. eh, i noe not good lahx, but for a person who hasn't been swimming recently/ frequently, i think its a pretty good attempt. ahhaha.

going to sch [singapore conference hall; not school] later for the arts festival practice. first rehearsal with the orchestra. wonder how big a screw up it will be. hahaha. ok fine. it won't be a screw up. hahaha. our parts will be alright i think,. jsut that when we are supposed to come in, but we dun, ahhhh, that's where we might just see blood boil. hahhaa. so exciting.

one thing i must state is that for me personally, as a graduate from a boys school, seeing people flare up and start screaming at the people are actually quite funny. hahaha. am i perverted? maybe. hahaha.

nevertheless, vs rocks.
leaving soon.
cheeros.

the hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy

ah-ha! all you earthlings- this is your captain, mouse speaking. while you may be busy at work with the experiments on our fellow brothers and sister, let me reassure you that you too are being experimental subjects in our very own wat we call as "live testing". well, its nothing painful nor hurting, just excruciating. we extract your brains to search for the meaning of the life. the ultimate question is what we are looking for. do not under-estimate our small brain which to you proud humans may think of it as tiny and insignificant, it can get lethal. of course, we wouldn't want to show that side of us to you, our owners. at least not for now.

hahaa. well this is wat the whole movie "The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy" is all about. hahaha. if you're interested to find out how dolphins are linked to the demolition of a house because the authorities have to build a new courseway, and then linked to the demolition of the world because the universe authorites want to use the space that the earth is taking up to build a new courseway, which is then linked to how 2 people get stranded on a ship of real fugly creatures [probably jabba the hut's cousins] and then linked to how these 2 men find themselves in a beautiful ship with 2 new people and a robot [i must say: the robot's cute, but suicidal] which is further linked to how they run all around the universe just to search for the meaning of life, then yes, this movie is for you.

of course, there are the funny parts, such as people praying to a handkerchief and instead of the normal Christian AMEN, they go AHCHEW and the person i/c goes bless you. its funny, but on the Christian perspective, well its pretty much blasphemous. there was also a part which stated that men actually created the world. well, then again in the Christian perspective, God made the world. as to why 2 mice can be smarter than 4 humans and a robot still baffles me though. i wonder why this whole show's created and produced in the first place. it somehow seemed to me and my friends that the producers had a tough time thinking of creative ideas to put into the show. it seemed rather impromptu, if i may use that word. as if the show's made without proper planning and script- it jus didn't flow. maybe its something philosophical.

ahh- i got it. maybe the whole mix-up thing is jsut to re-emphasize the point that we may be searching for the answer to the ultimate question in our lives , that is waht is the thing that brings us great satisfaction and joy to our lives. all the jumble-mumble-crap is just to show that life itself is complicated. there are just so many things in life, and others' life that we need to satisfy. there is an unlimited need to satisfy ourselves, so much so that we always ask ourselves what really satisfies all our needs when the answer actually laid before us. love. it never fails. cliche, but yes its true. ti defeats all enemies, brought peace in the land, restored new life, brought new hope. maybe at the end of the day, the whole movie was about the love of Christ. just like in the show, when sometimes we may be so far far away from the people we love, yet we will not appreciate them until we lose all that we have. until our eye for material wealth is permanently blinded, we will never understand and see the true love of Christ.

maybe that's wat the show's all about.
this show's a definite must - watch for animation buffs.
also a show for people who just have too much money to spend.
overall, it was alright.
at least it got me thinking.

a new blog skin.

woohoo! finally. a new blog skin. this one was the shortest i took to create a blog. hahaha. 2h was all it took! of course in between i had to wash the clothes and binch, but still it loooks pretty alright. the tag-board has been revamped too, enjoy the new shoutbox then. hahaha. music's cool, shoutbox's funky, overall, damn i'm proud of myself.

now back to the books.
or should i?

gah!

slept at 2am last night, woke up in the middle of the night, about 4am, then went back to sleep and finally woke up at 9.45am today. so not enough sleep lahx. ha! shld i study today? yes i should.

no i shouldn't.

YES, you should.

watched tv the whole morning. watched a documentary on the komodo dragons. then watched a horrid girl-cartoon "totally spies". yucks. as i watched the final minutes of the show, i asked myself why do girls like this sort of "girls-try-to-kick-butt" cartoons or even "girl flower power" shows. so unimaginative. hmmm, i think i sound like a perfect male chauvanist pig. alright, minus the pig part, but still i found the shows to be "guy-action-heores-wannabes". gah!

i'm such an ass.

damn i love batman
and spiderman
and the fantastic four
and superman [hey, gotta write it down. universal super hero- dun like him thought, he looks gay]
and x-men
and justice league
and star wars
and matrix [ok lahx]
and spongebob squarepants [come on! he saved bikini bottom. :)]

i'm seriously such an ass.

sleeping late again.

have been sleeping late again- like 1am? is that late? i noe of some frends who sleep at like 3/4 am. that's 3 or 4 am. not three-quarters am. totally no meaning lahx. hahah. hmmm. i've just been thinking again. somehow this b-j thing is getting a bit into me. its been making me think of a lot things, things that i should not be thinking about. maybe its just me. probably.

yes, it is definitely just me.

for it takes 2 hands to clap
2 legs to walk
patience is such a virtue,
now i finally understand.
period.

i want more, more out of this
the engine's up, but the
car's not moving
what can i do?
nothing.

let it be, let nature take its
own course
wat course is there, be?
now you see, patience is all i
need.

jerk it out.

argh./ love this song loads.
jerk it out by ceaser's palace. woohoo!
enjoy.

bowling then pool

haha. to think that i actually intended to study econs and chem today as well as math which i didn't do yesterday. hahah. i didn't study at all lahx today. choir in the afternoon, actually it started with sectionals at 10. then choir prac at 1. then we kept on singing those 4 songs for the arts fest wan- the one on zheng he. haix. come to think of it, what's his english name? tay ho. hahahha. bah. sang till about 4pm. then went to starbucks. quite fun to zhuo nong the 2 of them, well you can nearly say i'm a family friend of the tan family. hahaha. or at least soon-to-be tan family. hahaha. who knows? hmmm. *ponders* gah! went to parkway, to meet my 4bclassmates AGAIN. bryan (again? yepps), yapchow, elias (yepps, again.), shen yean. yup that's all. hahaha. went bowling where we played 3 games, a total of 7.50bucks EACH. wth- pay so much. hahaha. avergae score a bit the below 100. hahaha. but elias kept dng stupid things lahx. dam,n farni shit. hahaha. shen yean also, bowl the loudest seh. hahaha. i'm contented- had 2 strikes today. hahaha. everybody say yaaaaaaaaaaaaaay. ahahhaha. bleepeers. went pool at like 10.50pm, hahaha, then played fer about 1h, same place, then we chiong to the bus stop. hahhaa. shen yean and i managed to take the last bus home! praise God! hahhaa. so now back home writing this blog...

haha. to think that i actually intended to study econs and chem....

nitex out.

totally slacked

bah! thot i could accomplish wat i wanted to do today- study physics and maths. in the end, only managed to finish physics. chem was done in the morn, but that's not really counted cause it was supposed to be done yesterday. seems like i'll be pushing my schedule by one subject down. bah! have been slacking too much. was watching x-men evolution on cartoon network this afternoon. man, i miss my childhood days when i can just sit down and watch my fav cartooons like teenage mutant ninja turtles without giving a damn care about wat's going on around me. now with the a-levels beckoning nxt year, i carnt seem to put down my books for a few minutes of enjoyment. arghx.

Ms Universe was on tonight. didn't watch at all- went out to play pool with bryan and elias. again, i know. watched star wars for the second time. again, i know. darn, i've been doing a lot of redundancies these few days. haha. heck. it was great fun playing with them. hahaha. all those damn nice shots, eh eh- elias quite the pro wan neh. that bra also. hahaha. only i like some beginner . hahaha. eating some humble pie, it sure taste good. back to Ms Universe.

behind that mask,
i hide myself.
i conceal my thoughts,
my personality
i am not i.

my mouth speaks
a dozen words,
but deep down
i speaketh of thousands
free me.

people love me for
cliche reasons that even
the dumbest would know...
they don't know me
i don't know me.