it's odd isn't it? people watch watch romantic movies, listen to love songs even read romantic novels, all in the hopes of finding some possibility that they too, like their fictional characters, can find that perfect hollywood love scene- or at least part of it, even a small one will do. we often throw ourselves, unconsciously or at times purposely, at these chances and expect ourselves to experience that warm tingly sensation. it's a gamble isn't it? we're all gamblers of love, aren't we? we know the odds against us are high, very high actually, but yet like a game of poker some of us have already done the "show hand" and lose ourselves uncontrollably. have i lost before, given myself to the clutches of this seemingly dark image of love- the image that people don't know of or rather are unwilling to acknowledge it- yes i have. in fact, let's just say it was a considerable setback in life. question now is, will i gamble again? i will, definitely only this time, i won't be playing with mr hollywood. i was just thinkin, let's raise the stakes, shall we?

this time, i challenge life to this gamble.