with the headphones on

and the music pumped,

pre-vjc days pass through

the grey matter.

i dream, and dreamed i did

back to that history making day

where the nation crowned her

first idol, i was at home

- mesmorised not by him

but by them. vjchoir.

feeling just so darn proud

of people whom i didn't know

but yet had great admiration

and awe for them, i couldn't help

but want to join them even

before i joined the school.

the credits played soon afterward

and that name slowly but constantly

moved up the screen. vjc.

now i sit here facing the street

a foreigner in the unknown

yet with the headphones still on

and the music pumping the drums

thoughts still flow through the matter.

that's the power of a song;

i do miss vjchoir.

issues that need mending

questions that need answers

but i'm always reminded that it is

only without the entry,

my existence here is

made known and felt.

looking back at the path

that has been laid out for me

i'm glad that this has been

the chosen path -

no regrets and no hard feelings

thank you Lord.

happy hour with all the booze.

duty tonight though.
`rawr

after reading francis's last entry about walking down memory lane and all that personal-seemingly unfamiliar terms, i couldn't help but post this entry immediately. well almost immediately; that was after i had to confirm that msn works again and to find out who in the world are online cause that's what this entire entry is going to be all about- my roots, my family and my friends back home.

somehow i have this odd feeling
that this is going to be
my most personal post
since being based here
about a month ago.

a month ago! seems long but really time here seemed so short, and even if the geography of this country did matter i can safely assure you that it didn't. making new friends and knowing new people was all part of this based-in-taiwan-package but yet the most painful part, and probably the most forgetable part, is that we leave our loved ones behind. after all this time here, i have come to realise that the former seems so much more important simply because of the fact that since you're going to be here for a year, building up on these relationships are definitely going to matter for the longest time. well please forgive me if i upset you but not without you hearing this next part. even though i may feel this way, it doesn't mean that i have forgetten the people i have left back home.

was reminded of the people i've left back home after reading francis's blog, thus this entry and cannot stop but reminiscence. student days of yesteryear comes falling back into the empty pockets of memory and really twelve years of being in school really makes the filling up fast. though i can't remember much about my lower primary school days i do have some fond memories of them as well. school, homework ( upgrade that to tutorials in jc ), ccas, coffee joints-hangout and not forgetting those really random eats we had in between lessons or right after choir practice or maybe just going out to burger king to grab a bite cause we wanted to meet up?

all that and more i have not forgetten.

besides this, the fact that we're sending people off to whatever country they're studying in reminds me of the inescapable fact that we've all grown up. as much as i miss those days, our lives still carry on and we will all move on from our present state. some have gone ocs, others have gone sispec while some remain as the men. anyway, ever wondered why we were called men? go think about it. the ladies will move on, if not have already done so, to their new university life whilst the eight-eight gentlemen are still carrying on. kennick's going to aussie this year whilst wenhao's already there pursuing medicine. edwin and jon gan are both doing medicine local whilst cousin debra's going kings to do law. from francis's blog, fawn's off to switz while kin to cornell. david's going cambridge to do engineering and really the list can just go on and on. i only mentioned the people in my batch and have not included even the people who are planning to go overseas. we definitely have all grown, time waits for no man, that i'm reminded.

where will everybody go from here;

where will we end up;

how will we end up eventually?

- get a degree

get married

have kids

career prospers

have grandkids

the possibilities are endless.

my friends back home:

one thing's for sure,

i'm just really glad our lives

crossed paths once

and i do pray that it will not just cross

but run parallel till no end.

somebody help me

i'm a fan of chinese music now.

there doesn't seem to be any sign of rain

AND it's really bloddy hot.

reason being that even though it's night time now, the weather station reported a 30.9 degrees celsius right here where we are. actually the report is for a city down south of us, but it's not bery far off so the fact remains- it's just bloddy hot. damn it, even when we're back home in lovely HOT singapore the sun still gives in to us. right here where the sun is harsh, it burns literally. what's more, we went for our usual run today under a temperature of 40degrees. what do you make of that!

simply put, it's just bloddy hot.

winter hurry up can or not?

.

right now,

i just want to hold your hands;

cause when i do,

nothing in this world matters.

after all that i went through yesterday,

i suppose harry did make me feel better.

i caught it finally, the latest harry potter show. i'm just having this wild imagination of hermionie or ron or dumbledore launching a full scale protest against harry potter and his laurels. not to mention about how much they've worked in order to give harry the fame and fortune that he has now. maybe they should all just boycott him and probably get a dumbledore and his magical phoenix storybook or ron weasley and his mother-made sweater. that'd be interesting to see.

somehow that reminds me a lot of that navy advertisement back home. some-name's life story or something. hahah, but i mean the whole protesting part will be interesting right? then we can see all the true blue fans of ron and dumbledore and hermionie all plotting against harry. hahah. that'd be real interesting. on street protests, holding of placards, screaming through those ridiculous horn-like speakers which doesn't project much of your voice, throwing of stones or magic wands that sorta things. ha! but then again looking at things right now, i think that's highly unlikely. look at how many die-hard potter fans there are in the world?! haha. they're trying to revive him now right, now that they know that he's going to die.

poor daniel radcliffe.

being a potter till he's thirty.

i'm upset and shacked.

and when i'm like that,
bitch is the keyword.

watching that show made me feel

bad.

no, worse.

it was a show that dealt with how this woman dealt with containing her desires even though she was a fiancee already. but throughout the various scenes there were small short clippets of her 'angel' talking in her head. it was an 'angel' that talked about her feelings and her thoughts, is that still considered to be an angel. sounds more like a talking feeling thingy to me.

whatever it is, somehow or rather that show made me see a lot of myself in it. not the controlling of desires part for goodness sake but more of the feelings that the characters go through. i don't really know how to explain it but what i do know is that i feel somewhat the same after watching that show. dunno what and dunno how to explain.

maybe it just reminded me
of things i should not be reminded of.
maybe it's a sign
though i hope not.

i seriously do hope it just merely touched my heart

i never realised the great price difference until now.

a SQ economy class ticket from taipei to singapore costs about a thousand singapore dollar

and for the same class of ticket, it cost just about five hundred singapore dollar on eva.

talk about the price difference!

still, Singapore Airlines rawk. no thrash.

no doubt about that.

helooo there darlings!

i sound just like siying. gosh i do miss her, havent seen her for the longest time. probably missing chorale or at least going for 10minute practice again. haha. eh, i just realised 10 minutes is very important leh- can do the 10 minute mozzie wipeout. haha.

but that also brings me

to another issue.

heard about the dengue epidemic back home during roll call here and also heard from sam that marie's down with it. AH! that poor girl. i was actually thinking of writing about how she should not worry about Some things in hospital but then again i just went to visit Someone's blog and found out she's been discharged! *everybody shout wooohooo!* LOL. but yea, it's a good thing she's discharged already and all resting at home.

take good care darling!

drink lots of water and

enjoy doing your favourite pastime

- sleep.

eh people back home: go out put more mosquito repellent. whenever you walk a few steps just spray that insect repellent. doesn't hurt la. be a bit paranoid about it to the extent your parents want to send you to imh. hahah. or maybe be obedient to the government and practice that 10 minute mozzie wipeout thing. i suppose it will help la huh?

.

GREAT!

i still have the art of singlish!

pure breed singaporean!

newspapers here are weeks' old so i'm not really updated about the dengue epidemic back home so i really got to go online and find out. but then again i don't really have the time to go online and all. shall go read the JUNE 24 paper later.

wth, i feel so foreign here.

well i'm really hoping and praying that my loved ones back home, friends included, get this dengue thing. if it really is that bad, why not just confine everybody at home and then there'll be no school! wait, must have school. cause school doesn't affect me anymore so must have and make all students suffer the agony of seeing angry tutors everyday cause they didn't do their tutorials (reminds me a lot of myself really, LOL) but seriously, this dengue thing better stop soon if not it'll go out of control and i'm sure that won't be a very good and nice sight for anyone to handle.

goodness, my prayers go out to you all.

loving you guys at Home

as in family home,

and friends as well at home.

as in singapore home.

miss you folks.

opened my mochi today.

and ATE it

think jiejun will like it,

remind me to get some for her.

it's just not from china airlines.

haha. i didn't kope anything la.