ever ran a race so long it seem as if

it took a thousand years to complete?

the times when our paths are shaky

and the cobbled pathways seem as if

they were there to trip you on purpose.

not forgetting the leaves and the wind

that were acting against you as if

you went to war with mother nature.

the precious beads of perspiration that

forms on your forehead falls as if

they form some sort of a sign to others

behind not to follow in your footsteps.

you leave such signs, such trademarks;

but yet no one sees them, oblivant as if

they were blind without a walking cane.

you tried to warn them of the looming dangers

but none listened, all of them turned a deaf ear.

the warning is this: you are running for nothing

for at the end of this unwinding

difficult and trecherous road,

there is no end and worse still

there is no prize.

all things are meaningless.

silent tears

the tears of a man
cometh from the soul
that has been cut
hurt so badly
that he needs to let go.

it falls silently
and rolls into a stream
across the matured face.
a plain, a flood it comes
it kills.

the silent cires

trudging through the alleys of the night
of darkness, demons and spirits of fright
banish thee from this hysterical world
let thy spirit run free, be unfurled.

hear thy cries of the heart
-defenceless and without any guard
swords of many have pierced me
all i want now is just to be free.

the gramophone mind

maybe i will never know
how she feels for me.
the times we shared play on
in my gramophone mind.

it amplifies, it sounds
ringing fills my ears
the ones that were used
to listen to your problems
our problems.

but things have changed
complicated it has already been.
knots have interlinked
and ties have been strained

maybe i may never see you again
then again,
- maybe i will never know.

CHOIR CAMP' 06

hahhaa. WOAH! choir camp's over and everybody has been asking me why the camp was so short. haha. i always find it preeeetty amusing that when we all came, we were all feeling why the hell am i here when i could have just lied to be overseas or having syphillis and not be at camp and now all of us are actually dreadin the end of the camp. haha. well, the exco actually wanted 3D2N wan, but the teachers didn't allow. BAH. haha.

camp was super duper fun lahx. the games were fun and interactive invloving the WHOLE group, which was really cool. amazing race was fun! oh ya. i must really really commend my group (Group 2- Jeremy Ng, Hong Sheng, Caroline, He Li, Josiah, Shi Hui and me) for their super effort to continue the race despite all physical odds against us. really proud that we pushed ourselves to the limit and to the end. the determination and fighting spirit that i saw in all of them were evident in the amount of effort they took to literally run the race. NO ONE was left behind, and we were unifted as one throughout the race. so even though we may not be first, you guys have taught me many things such as determination and essentially what a family is. really really proud of you guys for what you all have done!

and oh, just a btw thing... i won best actor again for charades!

haha. so besides the madness and the siao ginas we were at games, there was choir prac as usual. okay here's the part where i msut seperate the two practices into two paragraphs. haha. the first prac we had on tues morning was good i felt. there was a lot of efficiency and we were all focused. did small group again i think. if i recalled correctly we did ad dominum. haha. not too bad lahx. entries only. but still, to adopt the attitude of Yeo, "this is not VJChoir standard" yepps, which is really really true. i think as vjchoir, we are not there yet, but hell yeah, we ARE getting there. haha.

the second chori prac cum small group was fantastic. group 2 and group 6 combined to form the "small" group. hmmm. we failed the first time with our hear my prayer going a tone sharp and pamugun changing keys every system or something. i could feel that all of us went out feeling disappointed in themselves and the group. but i must say that we pushed ourselves to the max during the practice for the retest and YEAH! we passed the retest. hear my prayer was a quarter tone sharp which was a great improvement and pamugun was just great, the Music Co commented that the dynamics were very very well executed and tenor's solo line was beautiful. hah. YES!

-to Yuting: when you told me how disappointed you were in yourself after the first round, i could very well understand your feelings. i felt that way many times last year becuase there were so little tenors and many times i sang solo. felt sometimes that maybe the small group fell because of me. but i learnt to realise that there was no point in lamenting how shitty i sang or how shitty the other person sang, but rather we should see how we can help one another out. we ain't no perfect singers, but with great efforts i'm sure it will avail much. be confident girl!

-to Johnnie: eh brudder! known you for 5 years le, don't scared! sing out. i felt this way when i first came to vjchoir too. the feeling of singing solo is just crazy lahx. i understand how you feel. but they key is to be more confident of your parts and just be confident of yourself! we're ALL working to be pitch perfect, myself included. be strong boy! NIL SINE LABORE! results will naturally show when you put in the effort bro! be confident VICTORIAN!

-to Enoch: woah. you got lots of potential to be a great tenor. sing out. dun scared your pitch go off... just sing out. you won't know whether you are right or wrong unless you sing out. without you, a chord won't form so be confident and sing out! your pitch is correct so sing out!

-to everybody: it was real fun singing and playing games with you all. the times we had together was just memorable and fun-saturated. thanks for the memories and the experiences. VJCHOIR SERIOUSLY ROX!

-to EXCO, MUSIC CO, AD HOC, CRC: seriosuly without you all, this camp would not be a success. every single detail was metiuclously planned out. thanks for all that you've done. the meals by crc, the night walk by ad hoc, the practices and testing my music co, and the planning and execution of plan by exco, thank you so much. *MUACKS*

seriously, VJCHOIR ROX BIG TIME.
NO MAN IS AN ISLAND. NO MAN STANDS ALONE.
WITHOUT YOU, A CHORD WON'T FORM.
A FAMILY WILL BE INCOMPLETE.

THANKS FOR EVERYTHING! :)

4 March 2006- one hectic day

alright the day started quite late i would say. exco meeting at 0730h and guess what time did i wake up? smart ass- 0730h. haha. so i rushed to bathe and brush teeth and do everything else in 15mins which is mad, and then hailed a cab and sorta forced the driver to speed and reach vjc in 15mins. so in the end i wasn't late for choir prac! woohoo- like chao zai lahx. haha.

totally zhuliguan intensive today. madness, but i must say the dynamics once in place will make the sound good man. serious. kudos to our most talented music co! haha. thank God for them lahx. haha. then mr kwei came and practised confitemini domino with danny and lydia as our solos for the day. haha. ok lahx. haha. did binnamma, factum, shower, ashita, ad dominum and errr. that's it. haha. but it was alright lahx. not too bad day for choir.

turnout for vjc victorians' day once again was not as good as i thought it would be. ha. betcha vs VDay was much better. haha. then again, its VS. woohoo! haha. so we performed in the 800seater performance theatre for like 3 rows of people. and mind you, those 3 rows were totally not filled to the ends. haha. how PATHETIC. haha. did mass dance with the choir ppl, and wth they made me stand in front so that they could follow, cause they assume that i noe all the steps which would really be madness lahx. hold on. i'm mad already.

haha. then went for choir bbq which was totally a go-mad session lahx. haha. had games which i must say were quite interactive and for that a BUG KUDOS TO OUR ADHOC COM! haha. great job there. hah. so after the games, there were all the normal vj rituals- DUNKING! haha. dunked like thousands of people lahx. those that weren't dunked siao siao go dunk themselves. no meaning. haha. so in the end, all of us were in the sea swimming about in our clothes. haha. played really siao games in the sea like captains ball and monkey which was totally siao lahx. haha. captains ball turned into rugby like game, which resulted in the 2-time breaking of yizha's specs. aiyoh.. but seriously ah.. all that running in the sea really trains your fat thighs and calves lahx. seriously. haha.

bbq was good lahx. haha. yeo should really consider being a chef. haa. or some professional barbequer-er. haa. damn nice lahx his chicken. haha. super tender. haha. was damn nice. haha. then the beehoon and the rice and the crabstick and the.. errr hotdog? haa. was not bad lahx. too bad i'm not some bbq fan. haa. so didn't really eat that much. lol. *chionging maggi now* then i took a long stroll along the beach. just trying to sort out my own problems. and i came to this conclusion > >

start it or end it. please.

yepps. by the way if YOU are reading this, my conclusion has nothing to do with a third party, alright? dun get the wrong idea. *gosh* really took me a long while after all the stoning because i was jsut so confused over this issue. ha. and now someone else is probably on the verge of getting attached, i wish him luck and them joy and happiness. *sighx*

so i'm back home at 2345h. out for nearly 17hours which is equivalent to a flight from here to new york! haha. that reminds me-

ITALY TRIP'S COMING!

common tests, cosmo girl and seventeen.

so many things have happened this week with the common tests all occurring this week, it was sheer madness. and so all you ba-kwa people who just wanna know how i did, well here goes. general paper- was not too bad; mathematics- woohoo! sure full marks; econs God save me; physics- ok lahx, but not say very sei; chemistry- the most disappointing one cause could remember all the reactions for organic chem, but cannot deliver. so it was one crazy mad week for me i must say. sleeping at 11pm every night and studying at white sands macdonalds from 4-10pm everyday, it's just been mad. yepps. so tired now.

and so after the chem paper today, went out with tim, peimin, yilng, yawen, guangrong, karfu, louisa, daniel and kinyip. supposed to watch big momma's house, but country girl yawen dun wanna watch. so we all sat on the comfy sofas available on leverl four of cine orchard, talking bout nothing but content from magazines. and guess wat? all the guys were talking TOGETHER with the girls over the contents of COSMP GIRL and SEVENTEEN. like totally wth. come to think of it, it was actually quite fun. and for some of you who may think that S43 guys are some wooze kittens, well we're not. haha. we're just versatile to be able to talk bout anything under the sun. haha. woohoo! 05S43 rocks big time man! things went from bad to worse. after sitting down, we asked them who wanna watch movie. now all say wanna watch, yes, including country girl. but went to the counter to buy the tickets, that woman tell us only left 7 seats left. wah lao. sian ji pua. too bad. walked to paragon- peimin's home.

while the girls went shopping, the 3 guys now went to coffee club to have a bite and a drink. haha. that just sounded so grammatically wrong, but i'm just too tired to go change it. ha. ordered choc fondue with fruits (sinful!!) and had water for drinks. haha. oh my gosh. haha. fondue was sinful lahx. ha. but who cares? we're guys anyway. guys who are going to NS soon. haha. crap. but the thing was, while we waited for the girls to call us once they were done shopping (how gullible of us to believe that they were engaging in some useful activity), we started reading the 2 magazines COSMO GIRL and SEVENTEEN in detail. haha. and we were just so quiet.. more quiet than we were if we were mugging. haha. crazy. in the end, all of us sat there for like 2 more hours till bout 7pm before we left for home. madness. may i remind you that the 3 of us guys have not lost our macho-ism. haha.

but seriously guys. if you are to ever try to comprehend how women think, you better start doing something. and yeah- start by reading these "what-may-seem-as-horrid-to-a-guy" magazines. its not all bout fashion and the what nots, but the other things that SERIOUSLY INFORMS you. haha.

enjoy!