here i come

"Verily I say unto you, If ye have faith, and doubt not, ye shall not only do this which is done to the fig tree, but also if ye shall say unto this mountain, Be thou removed, and be thou cast into the sea; it shall be done.

And all things, whatsoever ye shall ask for in prayer believing, ye shall receive."

-Matthew 21: 21-22

in anticipation

honour:
will thou speaketh in defence?
for thou hath commited sins
far beyond the depths of redemption

defence:
shalt not, your honour;
let thy punishment befall unto thee
for then will thee see and repent

honour:
however much thee hath said
someone else hath paid the price
freedom onto thee, shalt thee pass.

"For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten son Jesus Christ, that whosoever believe in Him shall not perish, but have everlasting life"
- John 3:16

spiritual me.
totally.

bout of depression<<

flung wide open the gates were at the sound of the bell,
interior streams flowed into the rivers of people;
in this mysterious world of emotions and feelings
why then do we immerse ourselves sometimes in it?
when in the back of our small finite minds, we know
that we can never control let alone subdue it;
feelings and emotions ran high clinching top positions
in the atmosphere of the soul where few have reached.
fatigue got the better of me, forcing my world of imaginations
to unleash its deepest darkest powers of reminding me
of the past- history: what a bore, but yet it brought back pain.
holocaust this was not, for only tender 17years old i am, it was more..
the world suddenly lost its meaning, its divine purpose
as it slowly dashed past before my very windows to the soul.
companions, brethen i have ignored. the face showed it all.
then she came back; this time like a huge river whose dams were
broken, began to flood my thoughts, overcoming my physical state.
help- i struggled through. sitting on the veranda, i stared.
nothing was tangible. but nothing was stopping me.
but it was so real. so futuristic. ah- there goes my emotions again...
i guess i'm just splashing around in the water of this ever so
tiny river of emotions;
in this big Big BIG world of feelings
where i hold no reins to it. absolutely.

ignorance

with a turn of the head
i was chucked away
at the corner of your eye.
you ignored me.

maybe ignorance is bliss.

triute to mr ong. thnx!

in the multitudes of people
that passes me every morning
few has touched let alone
enlighten the very soul that keeps me
alive.

few such as these;
reyneth, bryan, keun ho, samuel, taoyat,
jason, jueluo, jonathanlim, cherli, izzat,
kanghao, muzzhafar, shenyean, sean.
but more so for outgoing mr ong.

with wit and humour
you have brightened the darkest days
opening the heavens of our moods,
you have brought smiles on our faces
into our lives.

the years we spent
in this simple but yet complex relationship
has seen the young buds bloom in
their full blossom producing fruits, the fruit
of your labour too.

may this dinner
be our way of saying thanks from our hearts
cliche it may be, but our feelings that
accompany it shall speak doth words. action
does not.

to our dearest mr ong:
we wish you all the best in your future plans
may this friendship here it does not end
for till the day we meet once more,
or through a simple phone call,
sir, please forget us not we pray
as we go forth our own seperate ways
in flesh, we may be apart
but let the Victorian Spirit unite us all with one heart.

a walk to remember

open up thy ears and listen
to the following words.
believe me like the fact of
the south migrating birds.

walking alone from the train station
to the warmth of home
an hour and a half that's all it took
much shorter for that of a gnome.

singing praises to the One above
it brought me great joy.
but once i started talking about family
in fear, i started to recoil.

no anger burned in thy heart
for thy love was denied a thousand times
since chances is what they do not plead for
on what account should i not mime.

ignorance is bliss
blessed is the soul who cares not
better is ignorance than a crossfire
with the likelihood that you would be shot

dead.

now as i sit on the couch
as we near the month of december
of cold winter of the heart and soul
it would definitely be a walk to remember.

evening of music and drama: vs<<

i must say going to school today was a total bore and a drag. no meaning wan lahx, lemme tell you why: had econs lect in the morning (ie. totally a chiongster...), then had gp double tutorial which as usual is the ultimate slack course, then had break then physics tutorial of which mr lee didn't come so mr michael lim had to take over (ie. cable guy) then had chem lect of which i think none of them weren't listening, just yacking and yacking away, even the lecturer couldn't do anything.. i think he go home and cry le. hahaha. okok. i won't be that mean>>> then again, maybe i am; oh.. that naughty playful small sec 1 boy is back in the house! after that, had econs make up tutorial; got back my econs assignment essay, totally a 4/25 marks. i was like WTH. yepps. eyes waaaaaaaaide open, yeah, go imagine. after that grueling coming to terms with reality, had physics practical makeup, not too bad lahx. did a debriefing of the previous expt, then did an expt on electricity. i LOVE electricity expts... maybe due to the amts of cables i work with... hahhaa. :)

anyway, the point of this whole thing is to share with you guys how impressive emd-vs was. the evening of music and drama kicked off with a jazz band (actually its just a group of 7ppl from the concert band playing a jazz piece) which i must admit is not reallly very good, but i guess it'll suffice. then it went to the nicholas kang monologue. man.. that was awesome! the accents and the jokes ahh... cannot tahan lahx- damn good lahx! hahhaa. after which there was a play about an artist and his works, a bit the no meaning wan lahx the storyline, but the acting was not bad. not bad at all. at least i could understand the flow of the story. but if a bit more emotions and feelings, i think it'd be MUCh better. then there was the jamming band with suwei singing 2 songs. not bad lahx, considering them to be amateurs... as in cannot be compared to our batch's bands lahx. ours are like superb! hahha. but it was good. oh. martin's monologue was fantastically fantastic! i'd give 2thumbs up with no hesitation. real good acting and drama. hahaha. a wide range of play of genre acted out. very nicely done. overall: first half was good!

second half really pale in comparison to the first half. it started with thechinese orchestra which performed a chinese song. well i personally dun really enjoy chinese songs, so i didn't really fancy it. on top of that, somebody came out to sing the song, i was like SPARE ME>> help. nvm that. another drama of which there was toooooo much talking, quite dull. then it was the king arthur and the knights play which featured nicholas kang and martin.. i was expecting something classy and funny, but it was a disappointment to me. yepps. nicholas was good, acting as the queen, but martin: he was just a knight. argh. infuriating.

overall, it was awesome.
oh, the jamming band did the school cheer as a song. very very nice. hahaha. cool stuff. hahaha. anyway, we hadthe victorian anthem, the normal cheering, and yeah, that ended my day.

waaaaaaaaait. not ended yet.
they went down to the lift and did somemore cheers. hahaa.
that was a good end to a good start of the concert,
kudos to all!

that lonesome road

with my back against the panel
cold, hard and pressing
i sat half-legged,
staring into the open space in front of

me.
i spoke no words
for even if i did, nothing would come out
for the hours before this,
i thought you were forgotten
or at least squashed back there
in the half-used up brain, but i was so so so

wrong.
so very very
very very
very
wrong.
you reappeared in your form of beauty
i miss you so badly but yet
it's not possible. it probably wouldn't work out.
or maybe it would not at all.
i've moved on with life,
out of the cold hard pressing seat,
the future may seem so unsure and playful
but i know one thing's for sure,
i'm walking down a very
lonesome road.