i know i haven't been updating the blog as much as i want to so here's a quick update of what's been going on with me and whatever's been running through my grey matter.

i have been working, with a night cycling event this thursday evening through to friday morning. and that would be accounted as work to me. how awesome is that - how can i not say i love my job. oh well, nonetheless preparations for it has been pretty draining on some days and honestly i havent been sleeping much. so much so that when i woke up at 0720 this morning, i was pretty surprised at how awake i was despite the little amount of rest i had the nights before. seems like the Lord is true to His promises, that His mercies are new every morning.

onto matters of the heart.

i've been learning many things of which i don't intend to share on this public portal. nonetheless, my prayer is that out of these lessons i may, and by faith will find a love that goes beyond human measure. suffice to say, i'm still learning. what got me all started? well, let's just say a small talk with the boys helped me search for the answers within.

lastly, here's to all my dearest kids who are preparing for their exams: IF YOU'RE READING THIS, YOU'RE OBVIOUSLY NOT STUDYING. no, i don't mean that. ha, it's good that you take time off to go online and be connected to the world. your textbooks don't bring you very far into imaginations, only dreams and as we all know, dreams occur only when we sleep. nonetheless, my prayers are with and for you everyday that every single one of you would continue to excel in your studies, have an excellent health and superb time management both during preparations and at the exams proper. continue to walk closely with the Lord kids; talk to Him about your struggles and fears, He'll listen. as much as i want to be with you all, you know i can't divide myself into portions. but i do know that the Lord is with every single one of you, just as He is with me.

for that, i know you guys are in good hands
and i am encouraged.

love you all :)

i do wonder how many actually believe
that 'beauty is only skin deep'

and then i wonder how well that
would bode for me

today hasn't been a good day

financial woes,
kids' exams-trip clash,
ICT call-up,
and a small bit of You.

i want to sleep all these things off
and retreat to the back of my head
forget the world for that short few hours
of pitch darkness, and utter silence.
for then, the world will stop turning
everything ceases, but life still goes on.

HIS MERCIES ARE NEW EVERY MORNING
on that promise i shall stand.

why do people say that guys from boys schools are weird?

you know what,
i think they are;
i think we are;
i think i am.

but it's always heartening to know that every step along the way, in school and even when we're waaaay out of it, there's always a brother behind you - watching your back, always encouraging, always supportive. without saying, there's also much admonishment between us. it's strange that we can be so open with one another but yet live such seperate lives.

maybe that's the type of brotherhood we enjoy.
maybe that's why we're weird.

i commented at the dinner table that for 5 years since we knew one another as a class, we've been having such random dinners either after aep lessons, or after a long hard day working on our aep project, and even during our ns days, we still made time for one another. such dinners never seemed to be a rarity, it seemed so common. but despite the many meals together, there's always something for us to talk about; there's always something for us to gain, to give encouragement and to be encouraged.

and then i asked them, 10 years from now will we still have such common random meals together? reyneth coolly replied, "yea, with our kids all over the place." uhhuh, trust the only attached boy at the dinner table to say that.

but you know what?
as long as we have these dinners;
as long as we have each other,
i don't care much about the kids.

aih, nostalgia.